Recent content by saoirserylyn

I took all of your advice and left. My coworker is letting me stay with her until Friday when her husband gets back from a trip. It's buying me time at least and my boyfriend knows nothing about her, doesn't even know she exists. My boyfriend texted me saying he's not willing to get off the...

Thanks everyone. I haven't responded because I'm getting everything taken care of here. I will reply later tonight to let you all know the status on everything. Again, thank you all so much for the encouragement. When I made my first post, I felt really scared and alone. Thank you for giving me...

Yeah, he's absolutely the most insane person I've ever met. I've had some pretty shitty boyfriends, but nothing like this guy. Not only is he abusive, but he constantly tries to twist things that I say around until I'm not even sure what's going on. My therapist called in gas lighting or...

Self defense against what? I asked him a question, thought he didn't hear me (because he so often tunes me out as his own form of abuse), so I asked him again. Do I deserve to have the shit kicked out of me and be attacked for asking him a question? It's simply further proof to me that he...

I just never imagined he'd hurt me. We've had our fair share of arguments (happens pretty often with my ptsd, I get scared and lash out yelling). But he usually just ignores me and goes to the other room to play video games. Something in him snapped last night. The person hovering over me...

My parents hated him from the beginning and we're scared for me to move away with him, but he was so sweet and nice to me until we moved in together. Then everything fell apart. My mom said she saw it coming because he was quiet and not very social able. I liked that about him because I'm quite...

Thank you all so much for the help. I'm hoping I only have to stay out of the apartment temporarily. I make just barely enough to afford the apartment, but my parents have told me in the past that if I needed a couple hundred extra a month they'd be willing to help so long as I wasn't living...

Thank you. I sent out a mass text to all my coworkers asking for a place to stay tonight. That way I can be close to work until I figure out something more permanent. Glad he works late. Will give me time to pack my things, worst case scenario I am going to lock myself in the bedroom or sleep in...

I know from my trauma that I will not tollerate being touched violently from another person. I know that I need out, I just want to do so in the safest way possible. He's at work now, I left work early to have some time home alone to call the right authorities and get everything taken care of...

Is there a way to get cheaper medical help? My insurance is terrible... I've never had to deal with this before outside of my trauma. I left work early today because I keep shaking and crying and freaking out.

Yeah, one of the cops last time pulled me aside and said he's seen it before. Where people get into relationships with people who have problems like ptsd just because they're victims and they're easy to control. He said he could tell my boyfriend was manipulative, but given the "proof marks" on...

I'm also scared that he'll use my ptsd against me to make me look like a violent monster like he has in the past. Last time I called the cops, the cops kicked me out of my apartment because my boyfriend cut himself in the bathroom and told the cops I had a "ptsd rage" and attacked him. The cops...

I called and talked to my mother, she said to give him today to get out peacefully. If not, she's going to come up here tomorrow to take me to the hospital and to file charges while he's at work, so he doesn't have to know. She's scared for me to go through with it if no one is here. He's twice...

I have no where to go, the area I live in doesn't have a shelter or anything. I'm kind of in the middle of no where. My closest family is 3 hours away, but I need to keep my job. It's the first full time job I've been able to keep and the only thing that keeps me from losing my mind. And my...

Last night, I came home at 2am after a long day of traveling (airports, etc) and my boyfriend bad parked in front of the garage. I came upstairs and and asked kindly if he could please move his truck, so that I could park my car. I had work at 6am this morning and needed to move fast to get some...