Recent content by Sea_lady

Same for me... There are days (like today...) where I am scared of going to sleep because I fear I'll have to live another vivid nightmare. I wake up upset with cold sweat, a feeling of dread, terror. Sometimes, I wake up with bruises because I fought and moved too much. Sometimes, I wake up...

@Chris-duck Thank you very much for answering... No, I am alone... I've tried all the long term solutions already (months of EMDR, CBT, topped up with additional months of experimental treatments like the Lifespan Integration... I take medicines against anxiety for nearly 5 years...) but my...

Hi everyone... I am facing a problem that I have a hard time to resolve... There are things I must clear and tidy in my flat, but they are related to the past and trauma (i.e. papers, objects who belonged to me at a traumatic time of my life...) and they do trigger flashbacks. That is so...

I've tried EMDR (8 months) . Although it helped, it was far from being enough... I am now trying the Lifespan Integration Therapy (LIT), which seems to work better to clear past trauma related to long-term abuses of my younger years. It does have its limits, though, and unlike what I could...

@stp2012 That is exactly what I meant and how I view the onion analogy. I would also add that once cooked correctly (once the trauma are properly processed and cleared), the onion in the food adds a tasty flavour and gives us the strength our body needs to live another day without hunger. It is...

@TexCat Yes, she is specialized in trauma therapy. You are very right when you highlight the need to feel in control... The work we do is upsetting and painful, I often feel bad after each sessions and almost gave up because of that. Feeling too passive and bearing the pain without even...

@blackemerald1 Same session, yes, today... She later send me an email to suggest we have a talking session next week instead of keeping going on with what she wants. I've seen her once a week for 7 months... Do I trust her?... I guess... I just don't see why she has stopped a work that started...

Traumas sometimes seem like Russian dolls or like an onion: multiple layers... You see the one on the outside, you think that's the only issue and then, you discover there is another trauma behind, another doll inside the doll, another layer under, and so on, and so on....

We talked and I tried to explain myself... She kept repeating the same stuff, and then said that I was "sabotaging the work". She tried to make me feel guilty because I was not following the instructions blindly, I was asking questions and I was highlighting that I didn't understand the reason...

Today, I had another session with my therapist and I feel deeply misunderstood... What do you do when that happens? What can you do when you can't find the right words?...

@Deadman Have you ever watched the film 'The Hurt Locker'?... The story relates to some issues you raise. It is very difficult to go back to the civvy life... There is no 'Esprit de Corps', too many people lack of any sense of loyalty, courage, discipline and brotherhood. It is normal to feel...

You are not a failure. I felt exactly like you before, because I was also told that in a couple of weeks, I would be healed, but... Hell no ! EMDR seems to work well to treat 1 trauma (i.e. an adult person - call them patient X - with no previous trauma has a sudden car accident. A few weeks...

Hello everyone... I am wondering if anyone else has tried the lifespan integration therapy. If you have, was it worth it? Would you share your experience and any feedback about it? I am under treatment for months... It is hard... I will tell more about how it goes and how I feel if someone...

Yes, I feel exhausted most of the time, and that is deeply debilitating. I am not depressed now, but the fatigue is immense... I think stress is like a vampire draining one's energy.

I'm back... A lot of stress again... Finally, I got an A for the report I struggled to finish on time. However, this success is now overshadowed by the new things in my life (new assignments, new obligations, etc...) and it is hard to keep up... I feel ashamed of my poor time management... I...