Recent content by Shadowofdoubt

I do agree with what's being said and it makes sense, but then we'd have to go back to what's the difference between PTSD and complex PTSD..I think when you are told you have complex PTSD it's basically because you have developmental trauma.

I think they are just about the same. I don't see how you can have one without the other.

Thank you for the responses. The guy I have been this way with told me last night he is seeing someone else. It breaks my heart. I will have a hard time letting go, but I'll manage and hopefully get the focus on myself and keep moving forward in my own recovery.

I am so aware of these codependent behaviors. I have made this guy is the center of my life. I even talk to him about my issues. I want to change and learn how to be strong and love myself, but it almost seems impossible. I am 46 and I still have the painful emotional flashbacks, the fear of...

I ordered Complex PTSD from Surviving to Thriving by Peter Walker. I have found it very helpful, he talks of emotianal flashbacks, the 4 'f's (Fight, Flight,Freeze, and Fawn). He also has advice on how to manage codependent behaviors. I would recommend it, found it during a search.

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i expect that welbutrin will be added in, topmaz doesn't seem to be helping, seems to be worsening the depression. i'm just feeling discouraged. i appreciate your responses, though.

I am in the process of trying different meds to help with the depression and anxiety. I was so pleased initially when I returned to taking Zoloft and had Risperadone added, and Trazedone added for sleep. I felt better within a week, I was sleeping better and felt so much more hopeful and the...

I got to do a session of EMDR therapy yesterday and it amazes me the idea of actually healing memories. This was the second session I've he the Psychologist, he uses rhythmic vibration from devices held in each hand. What is nice is that even if you don't have the full memory you can process...

today in group counseling I brought up this memory and the emotional flashback was intense, I have not been diagnosed with PTSD but do firmly believe now that I had it as a child, and this was the incident. My childhood had lots of trauma, but I had nightmares of being abandoned or...

It's similar, my parents had 6 kids and I was next to last. They become too involved with the stresses between themselves that it was easy to "forget" us kids. My oldest sister kind of took over that role, but was more attentive to my younger sister, and she left home when I was 7. I think my...

In same boat: A major depressive episode for over a year, have lost my job and my life is a mess. Mid life crisis that is stuck. I am working on it, though. Spring time brings some extra hope. Wishing you all the best. :)

I grew up in a very dysfunctional home, alcoholic mother and lots of violence between parents and verbal/emotional abuse. I did become the quiet, lost child. The issues I deal with are depression/anxiety, codependency, and a horrible self-critic. Life is an ongoing battle. I am getting some help...

Welcome..I think you'll find several people to relate to here.

I deal with fear of abandonment issues. I have been 2 weeks in counseling and have experienced emotional flashbacks whenever this fear is discussed. I have a vague memory of a time as a child when I was left behind at a store...my family took off without me. I just had that memory confirmed by...