Recent content by sol1107

What makes me angry is the possible rejection I'm facing tonight. Beautiful lady I'm interested in is having a "closure talk" with her ex, who is a deadbeat drunk with more anger issues than me (!), and leaves town for weeks at a time for "work", and never calls her. We all know how "closure"...

You know you're depressed when the Mumford & Sons your ex-wife put on your phone is still playing in lieu of Trivium or Machinehead...

Man, it's been a really long time. Divorce is final, CPT is done, and I'm on sertraline, which slightly helps. I'm still angry, but mostly at her for not trying to understand once I started CPT. She thought it was going to be over after 12 weeks, even though she was told right at the start...

I felt abandoned when I went through my trauma, but it was just a fleeting thought, as I don't really remember much after it happened, and I had already dove into alcohol before giving it a second thought. I turned my back on Him because I felt that no God would make me go through the things I...

Well, I knew it wouldn't be easy! Thanks for your insight, everyone. I love this place.

This is EXACTLY what happened to me on 300mg Welbutrin. I lost it. I became paranoid, aggressive, and angry. I scared my wife so bad that any idea she had of stopping our divorce was gone. I refuse to take medication because I don't want to scare her like that again.

I only get those dreams when she's not around. She's a bartender. She works late, and very far away, and chooses not to come home. She often stays at her parents, or goes out with friends. It's the uncertainty that gets to me. Perhaps it's a flaw in my thought process; I feel that if she...

It's the anxiety that keeps up from being with other people. There's always the fear that we may be "too damaged" to know them. It took me years to finally work up the courage to go out on my own. What I learned was that people were just as "damaged", but in their own way. One guy takes his...

I feel you. I couldn't handle school. The social anxiety crippled me in class. I couldn't work with the other students. Hell, I could barely talk to them. I was only able to connect with other military students, of which there were few. I even had a dream job making stupid amounts money...

I used to suffer nightmares every single night. They were horrifying recreations of the source of my PTSD. From leaving the gate to pulling the trigger, it was all replayed with chilling accuracy. I even made the same moved in Final Fantasy Tactics Advance that I was playing with a friend...

He's not taking the easy way out, and he's not letting you go. This was the hardest part for me. His depression is setting in, and he's questioning his self-worth. I became incredibly suicidal when I hit this phase. I never formulated a plan, but I knew I would someday. I would tell my wife...

It has to be his idea. One day he will understand what he put you and your family through, hopefully sooner rather than later. The longer he waits, the more the pain sets in and eats away at him.

Even though it's over, you two can only benefit from watching a video over on the MyCombatPTSD.com forum. I can't post links yet, but log in (you can use the same login, since it's a sister site), click on Media, and click on "You're Not In The Forces Now".

In my case, I vowed to get myself better. I signed up for PTSDForum before I even made an appointment with a therapist, and I started to slide. It started as frustration with my supporter because I felt she didn't care to learn about PTSD (a cognitive error on my part, come to find out). Then...

CBT is working wonders for me. It's hard to slow my thoughts down enough to process them, but it's worth it. I feel less stress, less anxiety, and I've even lost weight from it! The downside to CBT is that there is so much going on in my head, something eventually breaks through and I dwell...