Recent content by Solveig

Broken Many Broken many, the child has waited for a soft hand to help her stand. How lost must she be before someone looks beyond their fables and storybooks? Or how many tears flood these grounds before her true voice is heard? Her gait and heart atrophied in this isolation. How have these...

Overall there is nothing in life I want anymore, except for it to be done. All this effort and struggle to only be met with agony. I am trapped in circumstances I don't want in life and can't escape them. My efforts only met by pain is like walking a thousand miles to find the thing you...

"Funny" how you tried try to anticipate my response to the hospital with the "most people reply..." section. My C-PTSD defenses give you props because that is what I do with anything, try to anticipate how to counter everything and protect myself. That isn't to say you are doing that at all...

I really don't remember what feeling happy or joy is like. It has been a long, long while. I'm answering seriously here.

I have a psychologist I have been working with for over 10 years now and she has seen me through some big transitions and a lot of pain and a nervous breakdown three years ago that I'm still recovering from. However I have lost all hope and only feel excruciating mental anguish. I believe...

The only silver of "want" to try another day is just because I just want to see my psychologist for the sake of seeing her - but that doesn't seem sustainable in the big picture and if I do end up not making it, I'd prefer we have some time apart to protect her from any repercussions.

I haven't found a point in three plus years and that is getting exhausting. I feel like i am treading water and my entire being is getting tired of the strain and is losing strength to keep swimming.

I keep trying to figure out reasons to keep going and I am coming up empty. I hear this part of me in excruciating mental agontly, saying to me "Please stop. 🥺 Don't drag me through yet another exercise in trying to believe it's ever going to get better. Why are you doing this to me? I am...

There is reason I put this under this forum group heading. I feel zero hope, only despair. And each day I wake up I find more to support that hopelessness. I'm am being crushed by this life. I'm so - so tired. So tired of feeling this agony and desolation and being alone in life. So tired.

I'm looking for people to share their personal thresholds or breaking points. Can they identify their breaking point? I feel like I have a threshold or breaking point and I've been close to it in the past 3 years. I'm trying to "normalize" these things or acknowledge that if I reach my...

I have been suffering from C-PTSD since I was 8 and traumas have kept coming over the years, very consistently. One of my traumas was being abandoned by my parents. I have been alone in life for about 45 of my 50 years of my life, either alone or bullied. I have been to so many therapists over...

Not necessarily, but that is one level of pain that could be a part of a persons threshold. Personally, I thinking of the emotional pain of always being depressed and anxious and always afraid and always experiencing life alone and day-in and day-out you see how I are a mistake and people...

I am wondering if anyone has a personal threshold for the amount of pain you can manage before it is too much? Everyone and everything in life has a breaking point. How much can we manage and still continue the fight? And is it cruel to keep telling a person who reached their maximum pain...