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I have to really thank you @Ronin and @Rainman8772 for getting me to think and gain some perspective. I will certainly get back to this but getting my life together in terms of work and you know the usual daily stuff is something I should make a priority, as t says. I will also try to avoid...

First of all thanks for the suggestions. But let me share what I'm thinking now. So now that I thought about it I think the reason my therapist doesn't want to get into this too deep is that I have extremely high cognitive capacity and tend to easily overthink in a way that it becomes a major...

Thanks for the suggestions. Though of course I will de-escalate verbally (which we also did train) if I'm not in complete survival mode. I would do that in any case if I have any mindful thought left in me, and might do that even in survival mode (it's just impossible to know for sure). But...

Yes good that you pointed it out, those were really important points.

Yes I forgot to add that. I'm sorry but I have an intense workday and am not able to fully think my replies through. I'm not afraid of responding completely unpropotionally, what I was trained to do is to neutralise the threat, not e.g. kill someone. Yes I know how to do the latter, but it's not...

Well, yes you are absolutely correct, and I wasn't clear enough. But if it's absolute full flight or fight and no control at all, then it's no longer my responsibility in legal and other senses the way I see it. I mean our laws here clearly state that if you are threatened with severe violence...

It's been like over half a year since I posted this, just wanted to get back to this. I did still get thoughts like what I described when I got angry but in reality I don't think I would have acted violently except in self-defence, since things have started to repair themselves. But yeah...

Oh man! Counter-phobia is exactly what I have in so many areas! I just didn't know the word for it! I mean it has gotten better in many ways, but I always have a need to sort of put myself in the traumatic situation again, usually just through my imagination or at times I have definitely done...

Hey thanks for very insightful replies! First of all, I do not currently practice martial arts so there's no instructor to talk to. And Ronin is right - it can't be fully undone, maybe some parts will improve over time or maybe not, but it's not necessary after all... Because I had a walk...

Hi everyone, Generally I'm doing really well nowadays but there's one thing that bothers me a bit and I have difficulty finding information on the subject. So I would like to know if anyone here has experiences on this or knows where I could find information. I think I will bring this up with...

Hey thanks for the replies. I have been mostly on another forum that's focused on sexual abuse and assault. Made the decision to come back here though now for various reasons, though I do not spend that much time in forums anymore (since I don't need that much support anymore and am trying to...

About nine months ago I finally got into therapy. My t has told me she considered me pretty much a hopeless case when we first met, it seemed like my schizoaffective disorder I developed when I was 18 had become chronic (which alone would mean no hope of significant recovery), I was an addict...

I have been able to build self-worth in a way, but deep down I still hate myself. I can look at my accomplishments and good qualities and be proud of them and actually feel like I am worth something, but this only works in a sort of a superficial level. Deep down I still hate myself, but...

I decided to come back here so I just want to let ppl know I got this sorted out (since I was in pretty big distress and might have caused some alarm with this post), turns out I had been calling the wrong unit of the clinic (where they said they cant help me). Its like one clinic but its split...

No I really don't in the end, I think I just needed to open up somewhere, it really helped. I apologize in case there needs to be some kind of concrete question involved. I have spoken with the t and maybe we can figure this out.