Recent content by sonicwhite

I’m on gabapentin. So it works on the calcium channels in the GABA B receptors. Risperdal was so good for my psychosis. I have E OCD too. The depersonalization and realization of thinking your standing before God and about to be judge o me personally is the worst fear you could have. In my...

I’m sorry for getting upset. I wished all this was gone I truly do.

https://ocdla.com/obsessionalocd This is what I deal w on top of PRSD, GAD, PANIC DISORDER, MAJOR DEPRESSION WITH PSYCHOTIC FEATURES, Insomnia, I’m not defending myself anymore because it just seems like I’m being attacked for being honest. I’m telling you that I suffer everyday. I suffer...

Guys if I’m out on a benzo for my anxiety who cares? It’s up to the doc. I never abused and I feel like I’m being pinched into a position of who likes me and who doesn’t. So I’m just telling y’all it doesn’t concern any of you. Yes ppl have anxiety but you’re not in my body. You don’t know...

I’m not lying. When I have a panic attack that’s when I’m most tempted. I had to cut all the ppl out of my life who would drag me down. I have GAD. Panic disorder. These are seen by a doctor for six years. All benzos do is numb me. I can’t feel anything even when I sin I just shrug it off as...

Guys my faith is what it is. My relationship with the Lord. My psychosis where I see lights in my vision and see dark shadow ppl and the unrelenting anxiety is causing me to fear I’m about to go thru another psychosis. I don’t want to check myself in because I get so anxious I can’t sleep in...

No I don’t want a benzo. Think make my conscience seared. I was and am amstill full of daily anxiety. It cripples me when I wake up. I told the doc I never want you to prescribe me a benzo. I fear I will get addicted and have more seizures and die. I am full of energy now. Not dazed like I...

I’m sure. I’m slipping into a psychotic break. I know I’d i don’t treat this now I’m going to lose it. I’m on gabapentin Risperdal Remeron Clonidine And I know from the way I’m acting that I’m going farther into it. I just don’t want to lick myself up because I get more anxious in there.

I think you guys are right. I think I’m sleeping into a psychotic break. I see orbs of light in my eyes. Everyday I wake up with anxiety. Anxiety that our bodies are not capable of handling. I’m fascinated with God. I’m reading up on psychosis and when I slipped into one in 2005 I was in...

I’m fine. It’s jyst my faith. I don’t hear voices. I’m just anxious all the time.

Love all of you. Please continue to pray for me.

That in itself makes me anxious but I guess I will. It can’t hurt.

Well if I’m wrong about the devil then my fight is fruitless. I just think He’s out to destroy my witness. I’ve been going thru the thick of it for awhile. Doctors are reluctant to prescribe benzos anymore and they were the only thing that helps my anxiety’s One thing I’ve gained from all...

It’s coming to the Cross. Christ loves you so much. More then I could ever. He wants a intimate relationship with you. He wants to love you. God sent His only Son to pay the price. I’m really hoping you’re wanting to know the Love if God and not just testing me. This world is filled with...

If I didn’t love you I wouldn’t warn you. I wouldn’t care. Yes some ppl take it to the extreme, but you have to realize that this life was ruined by the god of this world (age) and that’s the devil. I’m born again. God is love and thru Him I’m able to live a life of victory. I’m a chosen...