Other Psychotic break

[sonicwhite]

Guys my faith is what it is. My relationship with the Lord.

My psychosis where I see lights in my vision and see dark shadow ppl and the unrelenting anxiety is causing me to fear I’m about to go thru another psychosis.

I don’t want to check myself in because I get so anxious I can’t sleep in there. I was up four days while I was in there and I told them I need to get out. As soon as I got home I could sleep.

Please bare with me as I use my current doc to treat me. I assure you I get sicker while I’m in there.

If I lose it well I lose it. It will be painful but I know it won’t last forever.


Christ is everything to me. He’s my rock and my Salvation. Please Lord rd see me thru this unrelenting anxiety. Please folks bare with me as I try to endure this trial.

Lord I want to be a Pastor. I want to have a level head also. I don’t want to lead ppl into confusion. Please Lord I’m willing.

I know I have to work at My healing. Please folks I’m here because I’m so darn anxious. I wake up everyday with this free floating anxiety. Lord see me thru this.

No I haven’t I see them on the 10th.

Fadeaway thank you for showing me you care. That will reinforce that desire to push through my anxiety instead of getting addicted again.

 

[Fadeaway]

I am glad to hear that!

 

[Gs172003]

@sonicwhite I pray you are being honest.

 

[EveHarrington]

God made the people who invented medications. Dontcha think that God could be helping you in this way?

God doesn’t come down and directly fix psychosis. It doesn’t work that way.

 

[sonicwhite]

I’m not lying. When I have a panic attack that’s when I’m most tempted. I had to cut all the ppl out of my life who would drag me down.

I have GAD. Panic disorder. These are seen by a doctor for six years.

All benzos do is numb me. I can’t feel anything even when I sin I just shrug it off as well it’s just normal.

My faith was effected my benzos so much. It’s just alcohol in a pill.

I’m not saying that if it was put in my face I would because tempted but I fear I’ll die if I get back on them. My last two seizures where so bad they thought I was going to die.

I have a huge fear that I’ll die if I’m put back in them. The docs have said that they do work indicating that it’s in their head but I told them that it’s just too tempting for me. And I won’t make it healing if I’m put back in them

 

[Gs172003]

I’m not lying. When I have a panic attack that’s when I’m most tempted. I had to cut all the p...

Brother you just said yesterday you wanted benzos but today you say you don't like them.

There's a flaw in the slaw Hun.

Call your doctor and quit giving us the run around

Guys I need a benzo. I can’t function like this. I’m thankful I’m holding on but I know that this is going to eventually catch up to where I break from reality.

 

[sonicwhite]

Guys if I’m out on a benzo for my anxiety who cares?


It’s up to the doc. I never abused and I feel like I’m being pinched into a position of who likes me and who doesn’t.


So I’m just telling y’all it doesn’t concern any of you. Yes ppl have anxiety but you’re not in my body. You don’t know how disabling it make me. Unfortunately if I lose friends over how I’m treated that’s fine. I’m more concerned about my health instead of what someone’s opinion is.

 

[Gs172003]

Guys if I’m out on a benzo for my anxiety who cares?


It’s up to the doc. I never abused and I...

Ok I never said anything about not liking you. You have talked out of both sides of your mouth. You do want benzos. You don't want benzos and if other people can do it so can you! Who cares what anybody else thinks, if you need benzos it's nobodys buisness...which is it??

 

[sonicwhite]

https://ocdla.com/obsessionalocd

This is what I deal w on top of PRSD, GAD, PANIC DISORDER, MAJOR DEPRESSION WITH PSYCHOTIC FEATURES, Insomnia,

I’m not defending myself anymore because it just seems like I’m being attacked for being honest.

I’m telling you that I suffer everyday. I suffer unrelenting anxiety that cripples me. I wake up every morning and I’m in and out of my bed and smoke five cigarettes in ten minutes. On top of all this I feel I’m coming up short in my faith with Christ. Please just see it for what it is.

IM SUFFERING!

 

[Gs172003]

Some individuals may suffer from “Pure Obsessional OCD” (sometimes called “Pure O”) in which...

I am sorry you are suffering.If you want help please call your doctor. Stay off the drugs

 

[sonicwhite]

I’m sorry for getting upset. I wished all this was gone I truly do.

 

[ILoveLife]

Hey I've been there. I don't take benzos anymore to not get addicted, and I know sometimes they seem like the only thing possible. I'm glad you didn't take it though.

What kind of pure o do you have, if it's not too much to ask? I have a bunch, I didn't even know existential OCD was a thing until now :) have that too.

An exercise I do to handle these thoughts is to think in terms of my actions/reactions to them and not on the thought itself. My old T taught me to always save the thought for later, to not get sucked in. Like the end of the day, set an alarm, remember that you're not what these thoughts say you are.

I know how maddening they can be. When they're spiking, I usually have massive depression along with it. Plus psychosis, but with meds that's gone now.
I take a mood stabilizer that works with GABA, I think it helps diminish the intrusive thoughts.
You should really consider meds, alternatives to benzos.