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    Poll How much does your doc know of your trauma history?

    i previously answered 'no, other' on this poll yet wanted to add a few more thoughts. Neither my doctors nor my T have understood all of my trauma experiences. This isn't their fault and I can't blame them. How could I explain something to them that I, myself, don't understand. Have these...
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    Waking from a nightmare into sleep paralysis

    I can recall my brief, frightening sleep-paralysis hallucination of the 'black cat pounding on my chest' yet I hadn't perceived any tingling throughout my body during that experience. So, I'm wondering if this intense tingling sensation is common during these experiences. I'd only noticed my...
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    Waking from a nightmare into sleep paralysis

    @bellbird I suspect you're describing a sleep-paralysis experience. Yes I've also had sleep-paralysis that seemed to begin with a very negative thought or frightening emotion while either drifting off to sleep or waking from sleep. My sudden intense fear, the feeling of a weight or pressure...
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    Horses! Who are my horse-loving friends?

    Thank you @ruborcoraxxx I'm glad that you understand what I was trying to explain and can appreciate these amazingly beautiful creatures, as I do!
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    Horses! Who are my horse-loving friends?

    PONIES! Yes! I've been crazy about them since age 4! From age 9 to 49, I kept two horses in my backyard where I cared for them nearly every day. I often enjoyed trail-riding them through the nearby woods. Nothing too fancy and yet they also saved my sanity. When around horses, I had to stay...
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    Poll How much does your doc know of your trauma history?

    I've likely received a few assessments from age 20 to early 2019. Now my new T is apparently required to make another assessment. More recently, I've been giving several printed pages of my own written life history to my T. Yet one T told me that she wouldn't read my own written history because...
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    Poll How much does your doc know of your trauma history?

    No. Other. My PCP doesn't understand my trauma experiences, even though, I've very briefly mentioned some of them to her (3 times?) over the past 20 years. During my last visit with her, a few months ago, she stated that she thinks I'm schizophrenic and living in denial of my schizophrenia. So...
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    Sufferer PTSD Diagnosed, CSA Resolved Yet Dissociation Continues

    I'm scheduled to see a new PhD next week. I've been out of therapy for well over a year now. But now I'm wondering if I should tell this new PhD about my unexplainable experiences. I had mentioned these experiences to all of my previous several therapists since my mid 20s -- Yet after telling...
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    Trauma and isolation

    @airdog Possibly adding another aspect to the sufferer's trauma and isolation could be that their friends and family might be withholding other personal information from them, as these friends and family members might fear their wrongdoings could be shared with the therapist. This...
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    Fibro Is Brain Jogging Related to Fibromyalgia and Brain Fog

    @TruthSeeker I had hypoglycemia throughout my entire 20s. I know its symptoms ...they were awful and it seemed to always be stress-related. A few times I was near shock ...with extreme nausea, weak tense muscles, trembling, headache that first began at back of my neck, very pale clammy skin...
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    Fibro Is Brain Jogging Related to Fibromyalgia and Brain Fog

    @TruthSeeker Perhaps you are describing 'tunnel vision.' No wonder I misunderstood your off-balance and uncoordinated mobilizations during your highly emotional state. My dissociation is nearly always immobilizing where I'll simply freeze or I'll be abnormally calm though my heart might be...
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    Fibro Is Brain Jogging Related to Fibromyalgia and Brain Fog

    @TruthSeeker Though my balance dysfunction has been directly related to my cerebellar brain tumors, over the past few years -- I might have misunderstood your reference to the loss of ones vertigo/balance as a symptom of dissociation. So I've been thinking about this symptom -- I had...
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    Fibro Is Brain Jogging Related to Fibromyalgia and Brain Fog

    I was assessed by a psychiatrist in February of 2019. She said she knew of no drug that might help me …then suggested that I see a PhD. So then I did see a PhD for six session. I think this T had suspected I've been mis-interpreting my perceptions pertaining to my experiences. This T kept...
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    Fibro Is Brain Jogging Related to Fibromyalgia and Brain Fog

    Does my PCP have the necessary training to diagnose schizophrenia? She's been my Internist for the past 20 years. Rarely has she seen me but twice per year to briefly review my blood-work, a few physical symptoms and to renew my prescriptions (non psychotropic). My last session with a trained...
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    Fibro Is Brain Jogging Related to Fibromyalgia and Brain Fog

    My vertigo in 2013 was something I had never experienced before. It occurred very suddenly due to an ear infection. It was freaky -- as suddenly I didn't know which way to move my arms nor legs and severe. I was diagnosed via CT scan with one overnight hospital stay. -- I was released feeling...
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