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My childhood abuse was mostly emotional neglect where my feelings were either ignored or scolded for being incorrect. My mother once said, if I had more clearly understood the situation I wouldn’t be angry or upset. I was never beaten as I was basically a very obedient child. Yet once when I...

I know very little about the effects of prescription drugs on the body beyond the few I’ve taken myself — still learning. I’d suspect there might be many lingering drug side-effects. I had developed episodes of extreme hypoglycemia that might have been due to a psychotropic drug side-effect — I...

During the mid 1960’s, I was prescribed a weight-loss drug to boost my energy level and help with my weight-loss. Yet after many months with cold sweats, intrusive thoughts, poor concentration and insomnia I decided to suddenly stop taken this weight-loss drug. Big mistake … My symptoms of...

I’ve never tried stimulating my vagus nerve and cold showers, no thanks! However many years ago, I would practice repeatedly stepping on hand-fulls of carefully selected rounded pebbles that I’d placed on the floor. I would press these pebbles into the bottom of my bare feet to allow the stones...

Bold, energetic, unfolding, out-reaching! Or busting-out all over ... in other words, it's spring!!

user57352 wrote. Does anyone know any art galleries for outside artists in the NY area? You might try finding art galleries in this area by asking local custom frame shops within that same area. Galleries often use their local frame shops. In fact often these two businesses will be combined...

Paul McCartney's Wings album was my sister's most favorite music CD. After her death, her longtime closest girlfriend called me on the phone one day, asking me to please give her this particular CD. It must have held some fond memories for her. Though my sister died 26 years ago, I still often...

Though I entered therapy at age 19 or 20 for anxiety and depression — not until my fourth year of therapy had I become aware that, I was a sexually abused toddler. Up until that time, I’d had no clue, no conscious awareness, no inkling nor any vague memories of CSA. But then, when I had...

I think my giving up behavior over the years -- where I've stopped trying to defend myself -- has only placed me farther outside the family group. The more I gave into their abuse, the more I accepted it, the more freely they had turned on me. While I was trying to establish a loving connection...

I think I had given up on making any loving supportive connections with my parents and brother, early in my life. I had no choice but to accept their abusive behavior. And yes, in my case, most definitely, they've formed tightly bonded group packs against me.

Me, too. I suffered from emotional neglect from both parents though my other basic needs were mostly met. I was never physically punished nor threatened. But because I wasn’t crying as an infant my mother-daughter bond wasn’t very strong. And though this wasn’t her fault, she was always...

Even now, in my late 70's, I'm still learning about who I am and of what emotional hurt I've been struggled with over the years. The pain doesn't just fade away with time. Writing about my past self is also a bit depressing. I think that many of us, here, never received the loving care that we...

As a small child, when alone with my father, I never questioned the ‘right or wrong’ of my father’s ‘no contact’ sexual abuse (fondling) nor his other behaviors. I never told my mother that my father’s behavior was wrong — I simply accepted it. However, I can vividly recall my mother once...

@Rose White Said: I can relate a lot to the sexual dysfunction. That aspect of the csa fallout is so frustrating and alienating. Very alienating, yes! My sexually abusive father was definitely dysfunctional in many ways, beyond just his sexual behavior. He never sought therapy as he apparently...

beaneeboo said: so the thing about being so young, not being physically touched during abuse (when you were 4) and not necessarily understanding what was going on (so therefore 'why would it be considered abuse') is a logical thought process... but it's a logical thought process for a child who...