Recent content by starvingGrad

I know that I have a difficult time disclosing trauma and symptoms, so I wrote down a comprehensive list of both ongoing issues and symptoms that emerged in the last two years... the GP's response to that was "looks like you've done a lot of research", which seemed like a weird comment seeing as...

Recently went to a new GP for a psych referral to get documentation for my trauma, and was told that my emotional dysregulation was "just ADHD symptoms", and that what I am feeling (the cptsd symptoms arising from having an abusive childhood/adulthood) could just be a thyroid issue. Despite...

Rebuilding trust in other people takes time, especially if your parents were the ones that broke that trust to begin with like mine did. Rather than "quitting" I'd encourage you to look at it as "pausing". Having PTSD/CPTSD is exhausting, being a "functional" person is also exhausting. If...

True, the author is only anecdotal, I linked it more because of the type of language OP was using rather than clinical accuracy--I'm not a dr so grain of salt. This forum has a lot of links to more accurate info under the resources tab (forum content is peer group/experience based-- not...

Agree 100% with this, sometimes you gotta get back on the horse after falling off. 1. that was just one stupid internet person's opinion, the internet is full of miserable asstrolls 2. you deserve better than having someone judge the quantity of your friends, and better people are 100% out...

(I'm not a doctor so don't take my advice as such) I also have CPTSD & ADD, I've been on ADD meds (dextroamphetamine) for nearly 20 years, when my CPTSD symptoms turned into an un-ignorable undeniable issue I had to take care of I started taking lexapro in addition to my ADD meds and 3+ cups of...

Definitely. Encountering a trigger is like someone pulled the plug on a bathtub full of emotional and physical energy- my whole day grinds to a halt. The next day even if I'm motivated I'll spend all day working on getting through two or three basic tasks and pass out before 9pm and oversleep...

I prefer "imperfect" people, I respect when people say they're a mess, or a shitty communicator up front- because I admit I'm a mess sometimes, and a shitty communicator. I expect reciprocal friendships, I don't chase friendships where I always have to initiate contact, nor do I expect constant...

Late to the party, but give this website a read, from what you're describing I'd say it might be an interesting read for you. (You could nearly be describing my own mother to a T, & I found this site informative. Beware the trap of trying to understand why your mother is the way she is, its most...

I get that one a lot. Everyone asks about how many friendships I'm maintaining (especially in context of my diagnosis). In context of having some form of support system, I'd say its important to have at least one or two "good" people rather than having 15 "half-hearted/fair-weather" friends. Its...

Hope you've found some sources by now. This is where I started and what started moving little shreds of childhood memories/medical history in to a bit of sense. It's dated, (1993) but I found some of it useful. https://www.childwelfare.gov/pubPDFs/neglect_1993.pdf Also this guy has some great...

I guess its also the "you lived my worst nightmare" thing- experiences you would never want to experience yourself. Strangely when unaffected people encounter a survivor sometimes the energy turns from "here's a remarkably strong person, who is still standing here today so even if that worst...

Survivors fall through the cracks and I think when society is confronted by this it makes them uncomfortable. I'd call it "un-traumatized/unabused privilege". A side note: abusers cover their tracks or teach their victims not to talk about it, that way the abuse can continue. Once you have been...

Often I feel like shit watching so many tv shows, i have multiple traumas as well and its surprising what will trigger you even if its not obvious. While my traumas aren't usual subjects for "ptsd themed" episodes, I went through a period of not watching tv at all because I felt like most tv...

So basically I got home today from my meeting feeling like i overshared and didn't get much traction. The advisor was pushing towards me trying to reconcile with the supervisor by showing my work. (which even setting up a meeting to do so had been flat refused in the last email) So I went back...