Recent content by stayingalive86

I think I'm going to go back on my megs tomorrow. It's been around a week that ice been off then and I feel like walking out on my job or walking into a busy street. Neither is a really pleasant feeling.

I work full time and it's so difficult most of the time. I need a break tbh.

I don't understand how to move on. There are some days that are easier than others, but for the most part I don't know what to do. My doctors either way to shove pills down my throat or give me coping tools. I like the coping tools. I need something for the moment when the flash back and anxiety...

2 or 3. It used to be 4 cups of coffee, a large diet soda, diet pills, and whatever else I could think of.

It's also recovery from an eating disorder and self harm. The PTSD makes it almost impossible for me to focus on getting better in those categories because I am scared I will just end up killing myself anyway.

I'm finding recovery very hard at the moment. I almost don't see a point in trying because I'm afraid it'll still win in the end. I will think I'm free, then it will come back to this and one day I will give up. I emailed my doctor. I'm at work I obviously can't really hurt myself here, but I...

Hey guys. I am still new to this community, but I am very grateful to have people who understand. I am curious, for those of you who are single, how do you date? I find dating partially hard. It's easier since coming out of the closet. I always thought i wasn't into guys because of my past...

I know, I know, I am sure you guys are tired of seeing these posts. I already think I know the answer, but it helps for me to write it out and hear other people's opinions. I had a boyfriend, we ended up getting married because I didn't think I could do any better. I thought it was my one...

I don't know why I am just finding this forum now, but I am very happy that I did. I am Tara, 29 years old. Been diagnosed with PTSD since 2005 I believe. Mostly brought on my childhood abuse and things of that nature. I have some things happen as an adult too, which have made it harder, but it...