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Yes. try all of the above (the prazosin does help a LOT just- it's still being worse right now). some nights it works better than others (i'm up at almost four am so...)

Yes. And I have a friend who did his PhD Relegious Studies thesis on the effects of growing up in cults, a lot of his research subjects that experienced severe negative effects grew up in the JW's.

I wonder if- has she been given time in therapy *to talk* (or write and share with him, etc.) HER feelings and experiences of that person? I know for me that my parts who are very attached to some abusers- have felt attacked when told from the get-go that that was all bad, etc. They've felt...

I wish i was near Dr.Van der Kolk's Center- I know they do a lot of really good stuff. There have been what appear to be some Trauma Informed/ etc. yoga classes locally but as someone living on disability- I can't afford any I've encountered. I am, for some reason, really really terrified of...

at the moment i'm close to an 8 (i do feel like as a survivor of torture these scales get- all screwed up for me, just like the pain scales- like in extreme circumstances mine go higher than other peoples- but my therapists have assured/told me that's normal for my background). it was more of a...

it really really sounds like you need to try and if not be *kind* to yourself right now- to be less *unkind* (like the looking at triggering pictures- never a good idea). i've read bits and pieces of your story here- i think it's really good you managed that long, and it doesn't- you don't lose...

I take notes after therapy too. And for me I've found this was a dissociation thing, so working very very heavily on grounding was useful both in the immediate and long run- and looking at *why* I was so ungrounded

For me it's not that I'm not *generally* capable of self-control- in fact because of my past I had to have enormous control. For me it's like- well I never really do totally snap, thank God, because that would be- really bad. But I do to a degree.

this is an interesting topic for me in a number of ways. -first, my father was a Holocaust survivor as a child (in a camp, experimented on). although that's not directly combat ptsd it was always very- validated. unfortunately other family members and even the CPS people used it as an excuse...

For me it's not a form of self-harm per se, but it is a form of re-enactment. Years ago with a previous (wonderful) t we realized that by my not sleeping and basically living on caffiene and sugar at that time I was re-enacting and unconsciously reliving the experience of torture. I'm actually...

I've had parts do this. usually they only get completely naked when we're alone but- this does explain the agitated taking off of grounding bracelets, shawl, watch, shoes etc. too thank you

actually i've seen a lot of therapists (ones i've seen and known) who do provide some crisis support, particularly the more you go into trauma work, complex ptsd and it's- actually basically normal for that and DID. my current therapist i can email or call her- though she says if i call to...

i want to do this.

you are NOT stupid and worthless! it's really hard to remember things like this. (yes, i have some experience there). but it is real, and you aren't bad or crazy. and your not bad for writing about it- writing about it helps. d.

i can relate. it's been really rough for me too, though for me i have more of a- clear idea? what's going on with why. it does sound like an awful lot of med changes in a short period- did your doc know about stopping your meds? and can i ask about the day long therapy- do you mean like a...