Recent content by Susan Jane

Got through my 5th ECT. It’s getting slightly easier. It’s not pleasant but I’m getting it done. 3 more for this series 🧚‍♂️

Just finished my 3rd ECT … up and down actually. Hoping that this series gets a better response. Getting used to ECT so it’s easier.

Interesting. My mother was a narcissist with borderline personality disorder. I would be interested.

I understand…what to say to such a brutally honest post. I was surprised that I posted it. You asked and I wasn’t sure if it was okay to be so honest. Meds don’t help me very much but I start ECT again tomorrow. Being in the clinic with people that understand helps me. I am very honest this...

No sorry necessary! I really appreciate you taking the time to respond, with understanding and recommendations. Being in so deep really makes me forget these things, and even though it’s hard to read how long this might take me, it gives me hope. I have been battling the beast for decades and...

I try to get moving and also forced myself to play some cards with the other patients. I feel slightly better when I do these things. The walk opened up some feelings and I was able to cry. It makes me feel slightly real, and more in touch with myself. I know that sounds strange but when I...

The symptoms that are the hardest to deal with are physical exhaustion and brain fog. Trying to deal with CPTSD, depression and anxiety is very difficult when my physical health holds me back. I am so out of it that I can hardly begin to deal with the underlying causes. It’s as if my body is...

Too complicated… only my opinion… I think when things are that difficult in the beginning… no thanks. 🧚‍♂️. Life is challenging enough 😊

Welcome! I myself cut ties with my parents… and I made the right decision. It didn’t cure my CPTSD but it made it easier to cope. I think it’s a very personal decision and truly hard to decide. I always say you can’t pick your family but you can pick the people you want in your life...

When one is so under from depression it’s so hard to see anything bright in the future. Today I pushed myself to join another patient on a walk. I also motivated 2 other patients to play Yahtzee. Nevertheless I feel those feelings I can’t go on like this. It’s so frustrating to be back in...

I decided to come to the clinic and get some help through this rough patch. They nurses are very kind and I told them about my thoughts. The didn’t lock me up, but said to come to the nurse’s station when I feel overwhelmed or anxious about these thoughts. Makes me feel normal rather than a...

I decided to check back in the clinic. I am in bad shape and realized last night I needed more support. My ECT series starts in 5 days. I didn’t feel I had any other options, lying in bed and not eating was getting me nowhere. I am thankful that I have the option to be here even when it’s...

I tried Ketamine and TMS and unfortunately they weren’t successful. I really don’t enjoy ECT it is stressful, but I think I have no other choice because this episode is severe and lying in bed isn’t going to get me anywhere. Thanks for your input greatly appreciated

I’m supposed to go back for ECT 2x a week for 4 weeks. The last one didn’t hold and I am back in zombie land. It’s a hard decision to make. I’m going down the tubes and the options are not great. Does anyone have experience with ECT?

Thank you I have rung my friends and it’s hard on them. They can’t really do anything. They are concerned so I am going to the doctor today and tell her the truth. I hope she will have some tips on how to get through this very tough period. My problem is acceptance. I want it gone. Perhaps...