Recent content by SusanPLC

So our host that identifies with the name Susan had 3 quite bad panic attacks within a couple of days of each other and has disappeared inside..so I (Jay) found myself at the front, not much I can do about it unless she decides to come back. We use an electric wheelchair outdoors and it broke...

We have also found the part of accepting ‘the last hosts friends’ difficult too. So have lost touch with several everytime there has been a change of host. the only one everyone really loved sadly died in the first lockdown after getting covid. Also going through a lot of changes in later life...

My mid life has been challenging too since peri menopause started! I’m 54 now and getting closer to the other end and hopefully reaching a year in the not too distant future to officially be in the menopause. (Gone over 6 months twice) ..my symptoms started around my mid 40’s I think. ..though...

it has been difficult through first half of peri..the host at the time was not aware of the others at all nobody had ever mentioned anything to us and there was no memory between different alters coming out. there was a medical emergency where we needed adrenaline and was t going to be able to...

I had a period of really intense dissociation which was made worse by being isolated in the pandemic as had been put in the CEV group so could not have anyone in house or go out. Unfortunately I’d also had a stroke in my sleep and not realised which made the brain fog even worse . when someone...

it’s treat day today my food shop has arrived so had chicken salad for lunch and a cream bun called an apple turnover! 😁

I can feel the fragments from the early years coming together (all who saw the original birth name as their name) but am still missing loads from mid 20's to mid 40's. although I know technically 'this body' lived that life during that time. I remember the early life our last dog (when I had...

I guess I used Maladaptive Daydreaming as a child to cope with bullying. I would recreate scenarios in my mind and act them out, they would be mixed in with some fav celebrity being involved and me saving them and suddenly becoming the popular kid in school Sometimes I would act things out in...

My dog makes me smile every day! 😁

hi is ok to join in here? Haven’t really joined in the social chat I never know what to say..I’m not very good at ‘small talk’ I don’t get much interaction these days I’m dependant on family to take me anywhere but I rarely see them so spend most of time just with my (real life) dog and my...

Not got much in so just a (veggie) hot dog with chips for today Food shopping comes on wed so will have fresh salad and veg then. Did make a (quorn) lasagne homemade on Saturday and have a portion left in freezer for tomorrows dinner. sometimes I manage to batch cook but tend to do more in...

I believe there is a French DID site. One of the mods is called Dwelt but I can’t remember the name of the site as it was in French and I don’t speak it. There is an in built translation but I mean I think the actual name of the forum was a French one. I can’t find it from my countries browser...

I lost my sense of self years ago . it feels like I’ve been in a coma or something only hearing what was going on around me in the background whilst other me’s took the body and the life. The peri-menopause triggered something the chaage in hormones and the erratic fluctuations in the...

I used to fantasise a lot to cope with childhood bullying, preferred to be in my bedroom imagining scenarios with my favourite pop stars of the time (80’s) . I did move on going on to college, work and university and didn’t do it again for years as never had the tsime. to spend hours ‘locked...