Recent content by Sweetisabelle

My T and I have been working together for atleast 5 months now. I feel like I’ve really begun to always myself to take small risks and trust someone and allow myself the opportunity to see that by reaching out I won’t alwaya get shushed. Anyways last week we’ve decided that I can start...

Hi grit, that’s really kind of you to check in:) Unfortunately i haven’t been able to talk to my therapist about these body memories much at all.... I’ve been going through a bit of a tough time, so it seems like my therapist has been guiding me to not push myself.... it’s just hard. That...

Thank you so much for responding, for empathizing and for your ideas. Even hearing you say “this sounds so painful” was really validating in a sense. That someone can hear about my expierences and not judge me for them, that instead I am met with kindness, support, empathy, and ideas from others...

Thank you for your tip on focusing on what I can do now instead of only focusing on the end result. I offen feel like I have so much yet to overcome and that makes me feel even more hopeless. I’m going to try to shift this :) I know that right now it might be too hard to tell my therapist...

I’m having a really difficult time. These body memories (I think that is what they are) are killing me. Every time I lay down to go to bed my legs get heavy and I feel this fullness, like he has penetrated me, or as if I am swollen. Everything I wake up with my stomach pain (going to the...

I’m in a really negative headspace today.... I feel like I just need a safe place to vent. If this is against any forum rules please let me know. My inner critic is really loud... I feel like I don't deserve any better than to suffer on my own. I'm struggling a lot. I'm struggling to care...

I’m feeling incredibly vulnerable and ashamed of myself right now. I had a really good yet difficult therapy session today. But it was uncomfortable. My therapist brought up the topic of sex. I forgot how it came up, I think he was explaining that many csa survivors have a difficult time with...

I’m feeling really distressed. Last week in session in the middle of a mindfulness session I told my therapist that I can’t stand being in my body. He asked me what I ment about this and I shut down. I had let this phrase slip out again, and he wants me to talk more about this. I want to talk...