Recent content by Teleri

I am just feeling so low tonight. My Hypervigilance is really wearing me down. Just regular day to day conversations with people is so terrifying to me. I freeze and either I can barely take in what the other person is saying or I follow every word and painfully try to figure out how to...

I went through a similar experience with a man a few months ago. He was very nice and "understanding" until I let him know I didn't think we were compatible. He suddenly went on this crazy pity rant. Blaming everyone for treating him terrible and that no one will give him a chance. He was...

@littleoc, I appreciate you telling me about looking into a therapist that could work with me that way. I have felt a little hopeless about being able to afford what I need. I just hope I can find one in my area. Has your therapist suggested to do more with this? I would be curious how...

@Xena, yes you are right, that is what I mean. I am really sorry to hear about your family member. It's very easy to not get help and run the other direction. Using whatever distractions possible. I guess until it becomes too painful to ignore anymore. I would say I am at that point, but...

I am curious how many of you struggle with this and how you cope with it. This has become an increasing issue for me in the past ten years or so. And it is harder to control which has made certain social situations very painful and humiliating :(

whiteraven I understand. I am ready too. Just heavy with wondering how much longer this will go on. I too have family members that would be scarred for the rest of their lives if I took my life and I remember that. Just like you do with your mom. Lately I have been more mindful of my...

Just reaching out and saying hello to the community. I am not good with forums, but I really want to stay connected with people who also suffer from ptsd. I just hope I push past my shyness and actually communicate :) Staying inside my own head is not a good place to be lol. I am grateful...