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I say "I hate my body" all the time. it's broken. I've never thought about it like this but it feels very true for me. thank you for this post <3

How are you doing @Bird33? just checking in :)

Its all good @Bird33 -- i finished up babysitting (my side hustle) after sending that last one and crashed when I got home. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of this. especially while juggling the rest of your life. I'm so glad you have this outlet. I've attached a doc called "personal bill of...

@Bird33 -- reading this literally made me drop my jaw. How rude of her. and hurtful and mean to say that to you after YOU helped HER! wow. well i'm super proud of you for being assertive with her after that. i'm sure it was difficult... but i bet it was a step toward the moves your making now...

I felt the same way when I decided to finally block my advocate. it felt terrible. the pull between my desire (that i knew probably wasn't best) against what i knew was best for me in the end. its a tough place to be. but it was so worth it in the end.. for me that is. For clarification...

You are strong though!!! truly. You took a huge step today. A power grab step. You may feel weak, but your actions... they are strong and powerful ones. remember that. Do you wanna talk about what the email says? absolutely no pressure, but i'm here if your struggling with it @Bird33

You have all the time to process this and choose what to do at your speed, or not at all. You have all the power now. there's this quote i love --> "And then one day, I found my own light, my own inner-ganster, i snatched my power back, and the game changed." author unknown. one day at a time :)

I wholeheartedly second this post! :) really awesome job staying busy with other things @Bird33 . and for opening up to people close to you more. you deserve support around this. you have it here, but tangible supports would be great.

@Bird33 hmmm.... you used to be able to send messages. I'm recently back here... but it's been a long time. Maybe that feature is gone. Please know I'm thinking about you though and that I can understand how painful this must be. I think @Sideways reply was spot on too. I will keep checking in...

I see your point @Tinyflame -- the sadness comes from holidays. i've had to spend them alone a lot in the past because my mom won't tell my sister not to come. but my sister is an evil monster to everyone. theres only the three of us, so no buffers... so i no longer have anywhere to be on...

I'm so proud of you for blocking her @Bird33 . To echo @alwaysworkingthruit - you are normal. she is not. you may have your own issues, and they probably play a role in all of your decision making. as everyone's past plays into their lifestyle and daily decision making. but, EVERYONE CRAVES...

@Mach123 --- your post helped me tremendously. perspective. you nailed it. thanks for sharing. history repeats itself. i need to remember that. I wish for you healing in all ways. thanks again. have a wonderful day.

@Bird33 -- To be transparent I have not read this post all the way through (23 pages! ?) but I've read enough to relate to you in so many ways. I have been with my current therapist for 3 years on Sept 16. I admire my therapist. she is a badass and i wish i was more like her. if i'm being 100%...

Thank you @Keming @Tinyflame & @grit -- some perspective on this is helpful. All of your responses point to similar solutions. I believe it's time for me to mourn the loss of a sister i wish i had and start a new chapter where she has extremely limited contact with me. The worst part is I feel...

Thanks for being the only person in my life I can count on. I appreciate you more than you will ever know. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. you saved my life.