Recent content by tinyleaves

@Pilgrim Your replies really helped me to think and reflect about what to do. My mother has a lot to gain by having me as an audience to her but I have nothing to gain being around her. I think a lot has to do with what shrinkingviolet said, our parents were supposed to instill self-esteem and...

@Pilgrim thanks for the thoughtful reply. The things you mentioned are exactly the kind of things she says. She basically says I will 'never make it' in the real world and that I will 'get my teeth kicked in' etc. I think the what ifs idea is a good one. I honestly don't know where the fear...

My mother did the same thing when I lived with my father. She traced where I was living by way of utility bills and my name on them. That's how she (or the detective she hired or whatever) found me. A restraining order is a good measure. I also don't think changing your name would hurt as this...

For the past couple of years I've been living with my parent who, all in all, is to blame for the most trauma in my life. I've been wanting to leave and move out away for a long time now but can't make the arrangements/courage to cut the cord and leave. One of the problems is that I don't have...

Ok doing better....just having a panic attack

Omg I'm in the same position you are and I can't take it anymore. I just moved back with my family, the people who caused my trauma, and all I think about is what happened. I don't think anyone knows how dire the situation is.

Thank you to everyone for their answers. It's reassuring to know others have the same issues with sleep. I looked around the website and started to read other people's experiences. I noticed that some people are suffering from having one trauma in their life (car wreck, assault, violence). It...

I'm posting here mostly because I want to see how common this problem is. I was diagnosed with ptsd a couple of years ago but don't have flashbacks so I don't know if ptsd applies to me. It will probably happen if I start to remember the actual physical memories. Anyway, I was wondering if...