Recent content by turtlemoon

Ok, as a sufferer of PTSD who is in a relationship, I want to chime in. My PTSD is no excuse for me to abuse my partner. Period. End of story. You matter. Your daughter matters. NEVER feel like you have to endure abuse because of his condition. Sure, there are concessions you need to make when...

Super helpful support everyone. Friday, thank you for sharing all that, it is very helpful. I think I will start taking tylenol or something sooner rather than later for pain management. Hell, may make it go away faster if its strictly psychosomatic anyways, and if it does that could help...

I really need to start journaling all these things. Maybe that will help too. Talking about these is hard. Especially due to were the pain is located. A lot of times intimate moments with my partner, even non sexual ones, trigger pain from sexual assault. Now, the IUD thing... which I feel like...

Looking for help understanding what is happening to me. I definitely experience what one typically thinks of as a flashback, with visuals and being back in the moment. Fortunately, those tend to be brief. Not the emotional aspect, but the being their visually part. I have also recently...

Gah. They didn't call today. Awesome. Will call them back tomorrow, kind of annoyed. But yeah, I have thought about that Muse. I might look into something like ablation. I have never really wanted my own kids, but may want to foster some day if and when things even out for me. I am 33, my...

Not under my pillow, but my shotgun is nearby where I can get to it quickly. It isn't loaded, and the only ammo I have is just bird shot for hunting, and that is locked up. In a pinch it can be used much the same way as a baseball bat.

Oh wow... I didn't think I was familiar with them when I answered the quiz, but after reading the list I know each and every one of these all too well. I mean, I have a blackbelt in them.

Honestly? Both. Because my biggest perpetrator and the one who did not protect me are the same person. My mom doled out abuse my entire life, and still to this day will not protect me from the men in her life. She was with 3 men during my childhood, and then years later I was dumb enough to...

Big hugs for you if you would like them. I feel for you, and agree with what everyone here is saying. When I was raped in June, I had a "friend" jump down my throat about how badly false rape accusations hurt men, then when I confronted him he turned to, Well, If you really were raped you need...

I... I am so sorry. I don't know what to say. Other than tell you how brave and strong you are and that I hope you can find some relief.

So, just before I fall asleep at night I get intense flashbacks. I can't fall asleep after, and need to stay up until I am exhausted just to get to sleep. It is rare for me to remember dreams, when I do fall asleep I sleep deeply. But nightmares are still popping in. Worse than nightmares, my...

Friday, excellent point. I myself have a friend who badly triggered me a month ago and we havent spoken since. Had to take a biiig step back from that for the same reason. Coincidentally, this friend also has PTSD, and it was one of his reactionary responses that triggered me. At the time, I...

Well, children will never be an option for me... Well, I called them today. Earlier this morning, asked for a manager and got voicemail. Grrr. I did leave a message, hoping to hear back. If not, I may take this to their social media page. I need to stand up for myself again, and this is a...

I agree with everything SeptemViginti said. I also wanted to add that if you have blood in your vomit, please talk to your doctor. But ditto taking a step back and analyzing things. Me personally... my mother was extremely abusive. This sort of thing was something she did all the time. I would...

So, I called earlier today. Asked if they had anesthetic or dilation drugs for IUD's. They said no, and I lost my nerve and ended the call. Later today, my best friend calls. She is way more assertive than I am. She was told they do have local anasthetic for patients on a case by case basis...