Recent content by Undavnted

Sore. Knees and feet hurt. So bad I almost didn't wanna get out of bed. At least I slept well; past few nights I was having disturbed sleep, woke up in tears. So sleeping was a plus.

It's so true. I do a lot of fighting to ignore the inner critic. I didn't even realize that since the stuff I talked about, I haven't really been the same person. I'm so relieved to hear that others deal with this obsessive self-doubting, self-interrogating, self-criticizing thing. I can be...

It is beyond strange for me to have been in two or so threads by now already, and everything I bring up, I have people who understand, even saying things like "Yup. Been there. Struggle with that." and suddenly I don't feel like a tangled ball of crazy. For now at least. It crosses from being...

This is very helpful. Thank you. I'd say more in thanks but literally you covered everything. Should I feel bad that I reached out so often? I feel like I've either been a nuisance, overly needy, or have embarrassed myself.

I'm wondering if this is normal. I have a great therapist. She's extremely busy. Our previous session, nearly two weeks ago, I wasn't being intentional, and said "I felt fine" and "Idk I guess I go to work, I come home, etc." but did details some issues I've been going through. Upon journaling...

I really need to try journaling. I'm such a chatterbox to myself though, I'd end up writing a dozen pages per day. At least!

I just want to say how helpful this was for my self-doubting. Thinking as if one of my best friends told me what I go through, but as if he did. "Like wow you really are going through some stuff, me. That 'suck it up, get over it, move forward, and work' voice is actually a liar." Very helpful :)

History buff here lol. I'm currently reading a book called "Complex PTSD" by a Pete Walker. I can only read a little at a time because he says things here that are giving name to things I experience, and it kindof overwhelms me how there really is an entire vocabulary for these things I'm going...

See, that's all so new to me. Something changing, unstable, non-rational. I'm used to everything wanting to make sense. Math, straight lines. But this doesn't work like normal, physical things. I'm so glad to hear that this is something other people understand. The idea of doubting your own...

Thanks. It's new for me not just defaulting to saying "I'm fine." and thinking "because I don't have symptoms right this second, I'm doing great all of the time/generally." Being intentional about my feelings, and documenting them. I'll just share that social situations, esp. with men (PS am a...

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I appreciate this. It's so concise. Imagine military training, but six months instead of one, and instead of building you back up after breaking you down, they forget about you in a ward for a few months and then kick you out when you poke your head back up. I don't mean to be a whining person...

I relate to your thread title pretty hard. Exist and acknowledge. Amen.

Hi, I'm new here. Started therapy recently and things are starting to get difficult now that I'm being more open about what's under the hood. Attachment issues, regression, obsessive self-doubt ("vicious inner critic"?), depressive symptoms. Asked myself how much more I needed to suffer before...