Recent content by unlovable415

You'Re so right. There is no turning back. Even if I thought I could, these horrid flashbacks and nightmares will not let me. I do have great support from my new boyfriend who is unbelievably understanding, patient and there for me. He is gently pushing me to seek therapy and has suggested I...

Just as I replied to mystery and needed to compose myself....there was your post waiting for me. Only to have me break down some more. WTF. If I am reacting like this to people with kind words and advise, how am I going to react when it all hits the fan? That's what scares me. Not the memories...

Thank you for the kind words and your insight mystery. I call myself unlovable because I have never accepted love or felt it was ever genuine. So many people tell me that they love me and maybe in their own way they do. The thing is, no one even knows who I really am. I have acquired a very...

Long story short. 10 years ago I was brutally raped. Having three young sons to raise without exposing them to this trauma, I chose to raise my family instead of reliving this nightmare. During those 10 years I never dated or let a man touch me. Well 3 months ago I went out on my first date and...