Recent content by VikVikViktorious

Lol belle... Yup indeed. I was in extreme isolation for 7-8 months. Anxiety the minute I opened my eyes in the morning, to the minute I shut them at night. Thank goodness for my understanding baby momma- I even went several weeks without seeing my own 6 year old child. I didn't feel any sort...

Yup. Scout summed it up pretty perfectly. That anxiety can build up like a machine stuck on overdrive over one simple "yes or no" question.

Today I learned I am (or can easily be perceived as) a predator. In all seriousness tho- I exhibit a lot of the traits that you listed there as predatory behavior. It's kinda sad, because it was only my stint of PTSD that made me realize this- before than all of my shame and guilt gauges were...

Praying for you eve. Just so you know I remember you as being one of my rocks as I was recovering from a real shitty place. Thank you

Shoot him a link to this thread? I dunno. It sucks feeling so lost and desperate. I don't care how many people tell me I'm an idiot for still loving my ex wife. I'm sure I'd take her back in a flash- even w her two new kids. Some love just stays with you whether you like it or not. Whether it's...

drop a link! Mine: http://youtu.be/0eSfcUzGTdk

If you're currently suffering from severe identity issues- this man, Vinnie Paz, really has a way with sending a powerful, inspirational yet depressive message. Some typical vulgar language... But you know, passionate vulgar, not senseless like perhaps some of his other (otherwise brilliant)...

Well what I can say from reading is that it is very mature of you to understand the fact that he literally is 2 different people and while he is suffering he is unable to show that love and affection to you that you crave. You are very patient and he and his kids are lucky to have (had) you...

Not to be crude in any way (although it is...) but my first bit of advise would be to break up your rant into paragraphs and make it a bit easier to follow along. Not only does the avg person's attention span crave a break or two in the reading process, but people with ptsd especially would...

There was a good 5 months of suffering prior to getting help- but still- all in all it was about 7 months of suffering, and 6 months of recovery work with about 2 months of inter-lapping factored in. All in all about 11 months total- it all began around the end of this month last year.

Two cents are always appreciated.. Sometimes we snatch those pennies with a bout of excitement, and sometimes we smile at their existence on the floor and let others pick them up. For me it was an overwhelming need to give them up- many have done it cold turkey and suffered a bit- I did a bit...

Feels great, doesn't it! Keep it up :)

*A few quick disclaimers* -It's still controversial in my mind as to whether or not it's a completely "healable" condition. -I understand that everyone's trauma is different, everyone's body is affected uniquely, and everyone's healing journey involves a myriad of different obstacles and...

@DharmaGirl please do share! I went from being a man who didn't believe that mental exists- to one that preaches to (select) friends and family about the horrors of sexual abuse and its effect on the human brain. Imagine explaining to them, that I wasn't even that upset/effected by the abuse...

-everyone's experience is different -you can overcome your symptoms and return to "normal" life. But "normal" will always be in quotes because trauma changes the way you look at life, no one is immune to that. -for many, the trauma started so young that ptsd is all they know. -for some, the...