Recent content by Waterbear

Hi, I just wanted to hop back onto the site as I've been absent a fair while, and even when I wasn't absent all I did was dip in and out, probably because the thought of trauma still triggers me, but me and my new T are really starting to dive into this whole trauma thing and I am feeling like...

Interestingly I just asked this question somewhere else as I am seriously struggling with trying to connect with/reintegrate a part of me that holds all the trauma. I am very interested to read this thread! Thank you for asking the question

What if you can't 'tell all' though? What if there is some unknown and invisible force that simply prevents you (me) from doing so? The voice won't come out. The pen won't write the words. What then?

It's been a busy old week for my art journal. Lots of thoughts and feelings and I just don't know what to do with any of them. It's hurts so much keeping it all inside, but it's so hard to get it all out, if that's even possible.

I've just watched a TV drama. I wouldn't notmally watch anything that had any reference to CSA but I didn't know it was going there until the last episode of a four part drama, and like an idiot I kept watching. I've hidden from my past for so long but I am really trying to heal from it and...

Made this for my therapist who left me. She had to stop work really suddenly about three months ago and in a couple of weeks I get to see her to say goodbye. It's been a very very difficult time, but making this has helped in a little way.

Keep it real... That's where the movement happens. Wishing you well.

I made this piece as I am coming up to my first session with a new therapist. I see me as the astronaut and her as the space ship, me being the one to explore, but having that tether to safety. I'm worried that there won't be a tether. The string is imperative.

My recent art journal page. Thinking about upcoming new therapist. Could be good, but there is a big dark hole which I hope we can find a way to fill.

My latest at journal piece. Letting the anger and resentment and hurt go and choosing to remember the good times and focus on the positives. (Reference losing my therapist)

Wow! Thank you for this... I do everything I can to hide it from people. To "shut up and get on with life", yet still I hear this voice. Interesting stuff.

Thank you. I absolutely love the idea of having a goodbye session for myself. I do think I have been holding on to the small glimmer of hope/wish that she may return to work. I practically begged her to do this when we ended. I sent email after email after email asking her to reconsider. But...

Thank you. It is also testament to the work that we have done together, building trust, working on my attachment 'issues', developing a healthy internal parent who can comfort my younger part. Interesting you should talk about my inner strength, because that is something I have always had...

Thank you for understanding, it means a lot. I really hope so too. I really need that right now. I really need to start to build a trusting relationship so that I can process everything that has been dumped on me. I have been using the Shout text service during the very very dark times, as I...

Thank you. I will be pursuing getting my things back, and I trust that when she can, she will. I am fortunate that I have an old therapist who I worked with right at the beginning, who really gets me, who is helping me to find someone else, I just have to be patient as the one she has in mind is...