Recent content by Workingonit

I figured it out. Time for recovery. I have a damn good therapist. Thank you god.

I'm a sensitive mother f*cker with complex ptsd with many dissociated identities and all I really want is to be loved. I was abused mentally, physically and emotionally at nearly every point of my life because they are shitbags and I have zero concept of personal boundaries. I'm going to thrive...

This is purely the need to save someone in distress. I understand that now. I'm going to allow it because she's my kid.

She's 13. I'm not having anything. I havent learned how to care about myself. Its never been an option

I have no identity friend. I dont even mind. They keep asking what do I want and I didn't know. Then it hit me. I thought when I got mad that was my identity issue. But I realized that I dont want anything. I think my ex is a narcissist. I think she's abusive to my daughter emotionally. She...

I am way more f*cked up than i thought i was. But thats ok.

Ya idk. Alot of unknowns.

I think so. We haven't talked about money. But that's my assumption. And to pay for medical stuff and therapy. I guess a bunch of my medical issues were made automatically service connected a few years ago.

My vso said its typically taking 6-8 months, but they put me first in que. My therapist set it up. He said sometimes it goes through quicker but don't count on it. Just be happy if it happens.

Ya idk.

I didn't have a choice. It was va crisis line or jail or worse.

I've been trying to process my va evaluation. The lady was super nice. I think I kinda checked out while talking about iraq. She had this big pamphlet for us to go thru. But we only made it a couple pages in and then she started filling it out for me and cut the evaluation short. I told her...

Ya. I just got back. Some kind of second opinion. Idk.