Recent content by Wounded Scribe

Great conversation, and input by everyone, I've been considering this same question as well @RussH . I believe, it can get worse. But, if I may phrase what @Russ is asking...can PTSD behave say like COPD. (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease)... Normal people, if memory serves me breathe...

@scout86 I lost them either, when the kinetic force of the rifle lifted me up and out of them (they were slip on dress shoes)...or, I lost them dragging my body through the woods. I never saw them again. I never saw the rifle again. I never saw my watch again. My suicide note was inside...

The feelings mutual @scout86 I feel like I'm @ at some coming home party or family picnic. I'm among a company of my peers that get PTSD. For so long I've had to answer that question, "What the h@ll is wrong with you?????" I had no idea. None. Just like my watch experience, you guys...

Thank You everyone so much :) Group Hug :hug: Your kind words have indeed, made my morning and all the more reason why I appreciate the forum and this community. I intend, to buy the watch, have my wife keep it for the time. That watch, needs to be treated, unlike any other wrist watch...

Thank You @scout86 it's these somatic (if that's the correct term) I'm going through. Cold chills, shakes, tremors, my brain is blanked, and I feel I as if I'm in shock. I repeated what we went over in therapy yesterday, "This isn't happening now, I'm alive, today." I have every candle in...

Maybe, I shouldn't have touched it. Maybe, I should have left it alone behind the counter, but I had to hold it one more time. I overcame and survived that moment. That watch ticked the seconds of my life away, and they wouldn't let me have it back because my blood had ruined it. God, what...

And to think, I had therapy yesterday, and this afternoon, just an hour before I saw...that watch I was with the doctor for a med review. That watch, is a Mickey Mouse Watch. The significance of a Mickey Mouse Watch: In the 3rd grade, my distant family purchased a Mickey Mouse Watch for me...

Thank You @Lionheart777 as one who ate the business end of a rifle, I appreciate you're concern for your friend's desire to place his life at the end of a shotgun. He'd regret it. In that moment after, he would know. Thank You so much for caring, far to many people are so apathetic and this...

My hyper vigilance, wow, I don't know, honestly where to begin. Suffice it to say, it was one of the reasons why my wife last year told me she could no longer live with me. She didn't exactly come out and say, "Hey! Your constant hyper vigilance is one of the reasons why I won't spend...

Hello, and welcome to the forum. I hope, you find the community as informative, as I've found it to be. Wishing you the very best on your road to recovery and answers.

Welcome to the forum. Our path, seems to bear some similarities. I developed Post Traumatic Stress Disorder when I was 16. I had a year to try and come to terms with it. It was decreed by the abuser, "Boy. You've had over a year to get this past you, enough of this B#ll Sh@T with the...

Welcome to the forum.

Welcome to the forum

I do care. I care for any of my friends who feel that pull on their life. I know it hurts, but just remember, no storm blows forever. If I care, than there are others here who care about you, and if we care about you here, there's at least one in your life who does also. But, if you can't...

Hi. Warning, this post may trigger you, but I feel you need to hear this.... I know how you feel. I really do. Please, don't follow through with your plan. It's not worth it. All of the reasons you just listed for suicide, aren't worth it. I ought to know. I survived a self-inflicted...