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I'm days away of going!

Each of your responses helped in different ways. beachlife09: Your scripture verse reminded me of the Word of God in general and his infinite desire for us to be in relationship with him. willykat: Wilderness and animals bring much healing for me. I connect greatly with the Native American...

Yeah there were one on ones with her. They had to be within 3 feet of the patients at all times. Which was annoying because there wasn't enough staff to help with other things, but that wasn't my problem. I just felt for the nurses having to do double duty.

I was wondering if any of you have any tips on how to get out of my head. For the past two days I have been extremely suicidal. I really want to have hope and get better but am struggling with finding joy in life or solutions to all my ptsd/did symptoms. Thanks in advance.

You are totally making me feel so much better about going. I am scheduled to go around May 4th.

I've been with Judd for 5.5 years. Poor man. LOL! He has to put up with me. Severe dissociation with awful attachment and horrible trauma: Settle in for the long haul. You and the therapy are both penicillin and insulin. It may take months or years to make a good, trusted attachment...

Thanks!!! The daily codes that were called were called on two patients in particular. I was just worried they were calling because the patients wanted to harm others. But it sounds like from what you said the codes are usually called on self harming. That is terrible, but makes me feel a...

Thanks. I'm hoping it did too because the last stay was intense. Have you ever had a code called on you? What do they do? Every time they called it I hid in my room. Maybe if I knew what they did I would be more at peace. I just didn't like all the people coming on the floor when they did it.

Well I was at Sheppard Pratt in MD about a year ago. That was when I was diagnosed fully with both CPTSD and DID. I am going back May 4ish and am nervous. Was any of you there when I was there last year? May 6-June 8? Has anyone been there these past months? I'm wondering if there has been...

You know I'm against abortion, but to stand outside and harass people who are just trying to live their life the best they know how is ridiculous. When in reality God shows so much love and mercy for these women who make the choice to abort. Most of these women are so broken and hurt as it is...

I had a sleep study done and was given meds to help. I will say I LOVE YOUR PROFILE PICTURE!!!! It speaks to me in ways I cannot even explain. I feel healing when I look at it.

Wow!!! Thanks for sharing. I am still working, but wondering if I should take medical leave for awhile. I work very hard. One of my parts just started to use dialing down as a technique for grounding himself from self harm. I was so excited because he is the most self destructive of the 7...

Did he get home? Sounds like fun living on a farm where you can go riding anytime you want!

When I was in college and in a severely, life threatening abusive relationship with a classmate in my major, I tried to tell two professors and security. The classmate was a well known, high scoring student who everyone liked. The two professors and security officer didn't believe. A few...

The more impulsive the self harm for me the worse it is and it's usually something a little severe like banging my head or hitting myself really hard. If its more planned/soothing it is something less painful, like burning or cutting. I try not to self harm. It's been about 3 months since I...