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    I served my abuser at work today.

    Wow! I can't even begin to fathom how you managed to get through that, but as the others have said above, you did and amazingly well at that! I guess you already know why you did, because of all the hard work you've put into your own healing, but still, that's a huge accomplishment (even though...
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    One Thing That Made You Smile Today?

    My fiancé's work colleague once cornered me at the Christmas party (never met him before, no idea who he was) and said "you must be x's partner yes? Nice to meet you, so what size shoe are you?" I kid you not! 🤣 I replied, err yeah, size 9, why? He just stood there saying how tall I was and how...
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    What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

    I miss my babies. They're gone forever and it breaks my heart no matter how much time has passed. People think grief leaves you, but it doesn't. You just learn how to live with it. I accept that, truly. But oh god do I miss them
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    What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

    Totally get that, I've often felt my trauma isn't as serious or as others. What I have learnt is there is always someone worse off than you, but there's also a ton of people who haven't had the trauma you've survived either. I know its really hard, but try to remember you're here for a reason, a...
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    Chat, check-in, and hang out

    Hey all! Only been here a short while, so still navigating all this. Ptsd, and this site 🤣🤦‍♀️ Therapy has started for ptsd symptoms. 1st was building a safe space, building a relationship with T etc. 2nd was ROUGH! Don't get me wrong, T was incredibly kind and compassionate and ensured I was...
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    Should I tell ? Would mentioning a possible misdiagnosis or comorbid Dx of Autism be a problem?

    As Charbella states, many systems may well over lap with multiple diagnosis, so it's not unrealistic to think there maybe multiple diagnosis for you. I also agree that dealing with too much at one time maybe really difficult and unhelpful, at least thats how I feel. However, (and I'm in no way...
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    One Thing That Made You Smile Today?

    A new client at work touched my arm and said I'd done an amazing job. Was genuinely shocked because she had amazing hair so I knew it would look fab, and really it was a very simple curl and style, but I was so happy she liked it. The little things eh!
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    Sufferer Fighting the feeling that I don't really belong here, is that normal?

    Thank you, makes a lot of sense. That's at least partly why I was very concerned about doing cbt without any kind of assessment/diagnosis to begin with, and I'm still very glad I stuck to my guns because otherwise I'd be in a group cbt setting still not understanding what the heck is happening...
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    Dreading next session - I'm worried everything is being "brought to the surface" and I can't mask or continue daily life

    I think that's what's really hit me, the shock of quite how much pain I'd been trying to cope with and how deeply it had affected me I love to sing, and they charity I help run started a Choir which is amazing, but post lockdowns have drastically changed people's wants and abilities to do extra...
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    Sufferer Fighting the feeling that I don't really belong here, is that normal?

    That's so very true. I don't see myself as brave at all because like so many others facing trauma, I had no choice in it all, and for quite some time I was adamant I was only surviving for my partner because I couldn't bare to leave him in this hell we've endured. But, as you quite rightly said...
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    Dreading next session - I'm worried everything is being "brought to the surface" and I can't mask or continue daily life

    Yeah I get what you're saying there, and I keep reminding myself this process is to help, not hinder. I guess I'm still shocked at how long it took for my symptoms to become apparent enough to be noticed by myself, or anyone else. Apparently when I was in grief counselling it would still have...
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    Dreading next session - I'm worried everything is being "brought to the surface" and I can't mask or continue daily life

    Thank you, I know you're right. I've had extensive grief counselling some years ago (pre awareness of ptsd symptoms), but this is a whole other ball game isn't it!
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    Dreading next session - I'm worried everything is being "brought to the surface" and I can't mask or continue daily life

    So last week's session was TOUGH! Don't get me wrong, T is lovely and ensured I was calm and ok before leaving, but Jesus was it a rough one. I know I'm new to this ptsd lark, but it's really shaken me how the session affected my thoughts and reactions since starting therapy, and now I'm...
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    Sufferer Fighting the feeling that I don't really belong here, is that normal?

    Thank you all so much for your kind words. Isn't it ironic that I'm a trained befriender for a national charity offering peer support, and one of the big things we always find ourselves saying is "nothing good comes from comparison". Guess I need to listen to my own words eh 🤣🤦‍♀️. I can't lie...
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    My therapist said she would text me but didn’t

    Honestly it sounds like you're doing so much better than you think you are. Knowing how you're feeling (anxious, worried she's not trustworthy, that you're a burden) and understanding why you're feeling this way (you've been burned before by a therapist, ptsd makes us often feel unworthy of...
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    Issue from therapy - My T said, “She projected her shame onto you.”

    I'm so sorry you were understandably upset about your T comments. My guess is, and this is just a guess based on friends who have suffered SA, some may find this a way to understand why their abuser did that, but that in no way is how everyone would feel or invalidates your feelings towards...
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    Sufferer Fighting the feeling that I don't really belong here, is that normal?

    Thank you for replying, and I'm sorry you find yourself here, but glad you're finding the support you need from the forum and therapy. I had grief therapy for quite a while, which was very helpful, but these symptoms have becomemore apparent, stronger and more intrusive with time (particularly...
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    Sufferer Fighting the feeling that I don't really belong here, is that normal?

    Super new to this, so bare with. Where I am an official diagnosis will take years and costs tons. Instead, you're assessed by a psychiatric therapist and your "ptsd symptoms" treated accordingly. Had to wait a long time for the therapist, but when I evenly saw her a few weeks ago I scored very...
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