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Ive caught my daughters mom in at least 3 lies 8n the past couple weeks. Makes me think im crazy.. but other peoplle know about these things too and have confirmed im not crazy.. Her mom likes to hide behind her word vs mine but its not her word vs mine.. Thinking seriously about abandoning my...

I hate psychology. Its all in betweens and maybe. If its not this its that. But it could be this thing over here. Maybe, its that thing over there. But it might not be. Really not a fan.

Been waiting on a nexus letter from my dads friend for about 2 months now. I have reminded him repeatedly I wrote my email address on a piece of paper to give to him almost a month ago because he said he needed a printer. Technically I needed it last week. The paper with my email on it is still...

Court went well. The prosecutor was super nice to me like last time and I didn't want to hurt the judge. So that was a positive improvement.

Ya, i refused to talk to her about it for a long time. When i was shutting down her mom told her all kinds of things. Some of it true some of it not. She randomly started telling me that her mom never cheated on me. Like out of the blue. I was already in a bad way and yelled at her and told her...

Woke up at 3 am. Must have had a nightmare. I never remember my dreams. I threw up water and stomach acid. I feel better now.

I've been talking to my mom and my daughter alot. When I share things I feel slimy. Unloading on people. I feel like I'm taking my pain and giving it to them. It feels wrong.

I love my mom. She's great. I'm so glad she beat the drugs.

I'm pretty sure my dad messes with me on purpose. Maybe I just can't handle the alcoholism. But I'm pretty sure he messes with me on purpose. We don't talk. I know that most of it is me. But when I talk to him about things he just gets worse. Tells me to shut up. I dont respond well. Often he...

When you are in impossible situations there isn't always a right answer.

I understand. Really I do. I wasn't prying for gorey death stories. I hope you didn't take it that way. I have enough of those already. But if you want to tell me how awesome you are. Even if you f*cked up id be down. Restore my faith in humanity. If not thats ok too.. The shit you've done...

Can confirm.

What the f*ck over. I haven't heard that in a long time.

You don't watch TV either? For me its the commercials and alot of it I really just don't care about. The entire thing is infuriating.

We were the ones, sicking you on them. Mostly we didn't even get to shoot back. They would hide in buildings or behind rocks or amongst civies. Small arms fire maybe a rocket and then gone. Nobody to shoot at. And ya f*ck the "did you kill anyone" question. Honestly, I don't know. My favorite...

And when I shutdown I can't even help myself. I feel so worthless.

@Friday Do you have the drive to save/help people? Does it mess with you mentally when you cant. Eat you up inside? Its so hard to explain to people. Apparently its part of CPTSD.

@Friday did you save people as a rescue swimmer. I would really like to hear those stories.

@Friday Btw apaches are gnarly. We were pinned down taking fire from a tree line. The apaches came and wiped out the entire tree line in seconds. Some people from my unit actually got to be door gunners towards the end. Not me. Screw that. Never was a fan of heights. I see posts on the internet...

At the very beginning of the iraq invasion all the rules kind of went out the window. There wasn't enough soldiers to go around.

You forgot your crayons to keep them busy didnt you? They get hungry you know. I'm just kidding having served with marines i can't imagine what they did to you. And btw I served with female medics in a forward capacity. One of them particularly was one of the best soldiers i knew. While I...

I was in denial about my trauma for so long. I just wanted to move past it. Be a real person. It all feels so fake. I can't stand to look at my dad and when he's drunk its worse. I feel so guilty but I can't make him understand how utterly broken I am and the emotional flashbacks suck. I suck...

When we pushed into iraq we had no armor until almost 6 months later. We hung sheet metal off the sides of our trucks and built wood frames and filled them full of sand bags for the 5 tons. Which was totally uneffective against ieds exploding underneath our trucks and the extra weight caused...

Don't remember where this was. But I have a picture of it.

The single most attacked place in all of Iraq in 2004-2005