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I have had anorexia 23 years and its always a struggle. I am living with my parents until next week and i move back by myself completely no roommates nothing. I saw my nutritionist who saw my food record and said i eat much better with my parents my therapist said what does that say to her I...

So had a pretty rough session with my therapist last night. She feels I am unstable and almost put me in the hospital last night because in my journal I talked about suicide and it had method and intent she said but I promised I wasn't anymore and I'm not but she is not sure my move is a good...

I have been so depressed this holiday season...I am just so tired of fighting...i hate the holidays for a lot of reasons mostly because i was abused heavily around those times and parties and what not so all of it is too much i hate just that i want to be happy but i can't...i think about...

I have complex ptsd and anorexia and depression and anxiety. my anorexia is in a big spiral right now which my therapist warned me about with it coming up to all painful anniversaries and i was already struggling now i don't want to stop losing weight and i just lost and my nutritionist told me...

Coming up is a big anniversary for me. though i was raped many times by more than one person including my brother halloween is the first time i was raped by my dads friend at 8 and the first time ever raped i have pretty clear memories of the night but even those go deeper and are more painful...

Seeing my therapist at 8:00pm tonight and scared to say I have thoughts and feelings of suicide I know she can't hospitalize on that but still scared and she is not one to jump on that either so I have to be honest I just don't know how to bring it up and she should also know I am useless by...

I almost want to be hospitalized even if it is a psych ward which are miserable i am just depressed and feel there is no way out...i should just tell my therapist i am suicidal and she will probably hosptialize me i have like 2 weeks worth of sick time so I could take the time off and get paid...

I am very depressed and just at a loss . My therapist said if I don't maintain my weight ( anorexic tooo) I have to go to a higher level of care also she would choose long term trauma treatment and then not be my therapist anymore she said she would refer me out this made me more depressed... I...

I met with my psychiatrist last night...for one she said i looked not great like health wise because i have been not really eating i am anorexic and not even weight wise but just like i looked not great which wasn't to be mean and i know when i am restricting my skin starts looking like pale and...

Has anyone ever asked for their medical records from a treatment center ... I just sent away for records from one place I was at for 9 months I don't know what compelled me I just feel the need to know I plan on asking more places I have been and i have not told my treatment team I just made...

At a low right now been struggling really bad with my depression and just hopelessness ...my nightmares are terrible as are flashbacks...my therapist feels I have regressed a lot recently and am going backwards. I said a lot in texts to her and she said the way I talk is passively suicidal and...

I have read about complex ptsd and felt it really related to me though i never brought it up to my treatment team. My therapist read about it and found and article and told me today she feels it really fits my situation and my behaviors and everything. I have thought it a long time so its kind...

So my therapist just brought up long term trauma treatment again...I was doing better she saw growth but now she feels I have regressed. Nightmares and flashbacks have ramped up I have fallen into bad depression and my eating disorder has been not great and we had a session Thursday she sent me...

I have been in therapy a long time with my therapist about 9 years I would say now and have known her longer as she did a day program i was in for about 2 years straight in and out of inpatient at that point and back to the day program. she is wonderful and i trust her more than anyone i feel...

I don't know where to post this. I was abused by my brother as mentioned in other posts it was horrific my psychiatrist told my therapist when she told her some of the things he did to me that only a monster can do that sadly that is my brother. I don't think my mom doesn't believe me but she...

My therapist is concerned that I have been being self destructive in my behaviors...I cut and basically than passed out in the middle of writing her a text about doing that she is concerned I will do that and say my roommate comes home and sees me like that she would probably call 911 and I...

Scared to tell my therapist how I am feeling...if the threat of being hospitalized is still existent I am scared but I feel so depressed and just off I texted her about a financial thing earlier I don't want to be like well now I am a mess... I cut the past two days and did not tell her I am...

Right now I just don't see the point sone days ... like I am depressed I find nothing is really helping like i went to softball last night and couldn't even enjoy it... I don't want to read which I usually love and just nothing is working...i stopped journaling for 3 days my therapist who i saw...

I am starting trazedone tonight i have never taken it but i need to sleep and my therapist said it might really knock me out even at 50mg she said for one i am small and i only haven't started it because i couldn't be groggy the next day for work does anyone have experience on this medication...

I don't know if I want to die...i just feel like giving up i don't know i am in pain and just its too much sometimes but scared to tell my therapist she was worried before about my nights because i get crazy and a lot of nights i would text her that i was giving up and i would just be crazy...

I recently came to terms that my brother raped me from ages 12-17 on top of my dads friend who did it from 8-17 and they are separate situations but there are new memories surfacing about my brother and his friend like clearer memories than I have had about it... things I did not remember until...

I have had anorexia for 22 years since my abuse started at 8...its a clear connection i was for a little while managing and i have been in and out of treatment like inpatient, residential, day and iop, pscyh hospitals done it all...but then a lot of stuff happened and well i went back completely...

Hi I am new good to find a place with people with similar experiences i feel so alone all the time in my pain just introducing myself i don't want to share my full story yet as i am new but just the small facts that are painful and some new to admitting and recently came to new memories which is...