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Anyone had the TMS therapy? If so what do you think? Did it help? Do spoons stick to your head now LOL?

I've been thinking about TMS. It's available but I thought it was many years off. What if it works? I've been ill so long I'm not sure what it would feel like. It's scary. What if it doesn't work? I think that would make it worse. It feels like I've lost years in a Ground Hog Day type of...

I am a Lead for Nextdoor in our community. An elderly widow woman was posting thoughts for the day with a religious lilt. Many people enjoy them. She suddenly started having them removed by the Lead in her neighborhood. When I looked it up he removed it because it had a religious tone. I was...

I was over at Ex-Wife's eating dinner with the family and one of her friends sitting next to me on the couch asked "you don't work right.....how long has that been"? She wasn't being rude just idle chatter. She's a Nurse. I told her 5 years but it's been much longer. Then she asked "what's up...

There was an incident tonight. Triggered a little adrenaline. Turned out to be something stupid and not what I thought it was. A few minutes later as I was getting on the interstate there was a small amount of confusion and a little anxiety. Does anyone have this happen?

Woke up and it took me a minute get my bearings. I don't ever remember dreaming about my old partner. It shook me up. He was very withdrawn and didn't want any help. Didn't want to maintain contact. Didn't want me to leave a phone number. His family wanted to help but didn't understand what the...

A couple weeks ago my T and I were discussing politics and she stated a belief that I believed wrong. It confused me since I thought we were on the same wave link. I respect her so I decided I might be wrong so I researched it. I fact checked it I suppose and I discovered I was right so I...

I haven't seen any ghost ghosts lately but I have been seeing people who at first I think is a dead partner. I have to take a second look. I've had that with people that look like my Dad. At first glance I think it is him but of course it's not. I've seen several people lately who at first...

I was reading The Evil Hours or just got started and came across a section referring to Before PTSD/Trauma and After. There is the you before and after. I feel this way. Although several years are missing in there. I knew who I was before but I don't know who I am now. I'm not sure I like who...

I had an instance several weeks ago where I went back into cop mode when someone continued to act irrational and cursing my son. It's was a trigger. I knew it immediately after and my anxiety went down after a couple of hours. Hadn't had to get into that mode in a long time. I knew the feeling...

I've been getting involved in a local Neighborhood Assoc since we have been having a lot of burglaries. Several of the Members want me to go to the meetings (I hate crowds) and help out. I think many don't understand that I prefer email or posts on the sites. I went to the last meeting but I...

My T related a type of Buddhist Meditation where you examine your stress. Look at it, examine it, what does it feel like, Etc. She indicated it's often used for pain management but I could try it for my anxiety and suggested I look at videos on youtube. The problem is I'm not sure what I'm...

I had a neighbor come by and I can tell he wants to be friends but my anxiety level goes way up. I talked to him on the neighborhood site. He's retired but I am so jealous or maybe feelings useless. He has a huge garage he built. He has cars he has rebuilt. His backyard looks like a real cool...

Is it because I was a nerd and bullied at school? Is it a control issue? I get completely obsessed whenever someone attempts to intimidate me. Normally I couldn't give a crap but on a couple of instances when I'm doing something I like (hobby or online site) and people try to buffalo me I get...

I can't get rid of that adrenaline feeling. Like your stomach gets when the roller coaster starts that fall. I can't get it to go away. This has been going all day. Feels somewhat like a continuous anxiety attack. Hands shaking, light headed, very large butterflies stomach, nauseous. Anybody...

I see other people when I'm out running errands and I really miss just the day to day companionship of others. Seems I've lost all (the few) of the family and friends I developed on the job. Feels ripped away. I miss the intimacy of my ex-wife...not the physical but the interaction of daily...

I'm agitated over a stupid neighborhood web site. The neighborhood site is very proactive and I like it a great deal but it isn't the OFFICIAL site for our neighborhood assoc. I suggested a neighborhood watch yard sign like an assoc near us has. I made one real quick a jpeg so they could get an...

I've been using Ambien to get to sleep the last several nights. It has reduced the anxiety that occurs when I struggle to sleep, That has been nice but I'v had trouble because I'm sleeping thru the day. I'm going to set my alarm tonight. Has any one had this trouble like this.? PS I hope it...

I have come to the conclusion I hate what my life is now. I am having a hard time finding any peace much less any joy. Seems to have been like this for years. Was going to move out into the county but that didn't work out. I look forward to seeing my kids and my ex's foster kids about once a...

Since last weeks shooting of an Officer things have built. I tried to ignore the news and I tried to ignore my stress. Sunday I started getting light headed and felt awful. Monday wasn't much better but I noticed the closer it came to my appointment with my T it got worse. It was almost...

I turned on my computer and pulled up the scanner program. I listen while I'm working on the computer. I need noise and it's better than getting news from my newspaper. Much to my horror I hear them blocking the interstate to clear a path to the Trauma Center. It's feels like someone kicked me...

I heard them blocking off interstate for ambulance on scanner. All they know is critical condition but getting shot makes it critical condition. Don't know anything now. I'm real upset. It's bring up a lot of old memories and feelings. Y'all pray.....

This morning my doctor called and said the x-ray they took Monday for the bronchitis showed a spot on my left lung. They had scheduled a CT for this afternoon. I was a little anxious and I put a call into my T and left a request for a callback. Calling helped and she called back after the...

My ex has a couple of foster kids. She's had them for a couple of years. I help out with them a lot and have gotten close. One is three and one is seven. Yesterday the judge decided they will probably go back to the Dad. I'm so frustrated. The system sucks. When she first got them the little...

When I was working I was always on. New situations everyday, feeling that your doing something important, and being part of the team. Now it seems no matter what I try to do I know in the back of my head it's not really anything important. That pilot light has went out never to be lit again...