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I feel defeated. I feel beaten. I feel silent, like there is nothing left to say or nothing I can say that anyone wants to hear. I want to disappear. I want to just fade away and really be the ghost that I already feel I am. I feel like I'm collapsing in on myself. The weight of this is choking...

I feel like I am. I feel like whatever strength I may have had to cope with the initial incidents and whatever has kept me here so far, is fading fast. I've been here before or at least said these words, but this feels worse. I don't want to be hospitalized because they don't do anything for you...

I haven't posted here in a while. I have been isolating even deeper than before. I am slowly removing all connection to this life, even though most of that seems involuntary. Things are so dark. I can't find my way out. I don't even know how to begin. My brain hurts, it literally is burning...

I feel so strange posting here, very insecure for some reason, but this is the place to do it. I can't really talk to anyone else right now and just need to reach out to the community here. I am having such a hard time lately. I feel like a broken record, but things seem to be worse. I started...

It's been a while since I felt I was able to post here. I am still not entirely sure that I can put sentences together that would make sense and explain how I am feeling, but I feel like I have to try. I am devastated about what has happened to my life over the last 6 months. I obviously had...

I feel SO alone and helpless and hopeless. I feel like I am close to giving up, but there is this small part of me that is trying so hard to keep the rest of me from caving in. That part is becoming weaker and weaker because my world is closing in on me. I am so afraid I won't be here soon. I am...

Sorry, I had to do it. I have been struggling for a while now with this coming up and now that its so close its awful. I didn't see any recent threads on it and I was starting to feel like maybe it is just me that it is causing so much pain for. However, I know that the holidays bring feelings...

I feel like life is passing me by and I am not a part of it. I feel like I am looking at everyone from above and have no way to reach them. I feel like I can have no input in what is happening with other people, but especially my own "existence". I can't even call it a life, I don't have one...

Looking for fellow sufferers, maybe even to start a PTSD support group at some point, but right now would be happy with some people local who can maybe meet every once in a while non-formally. Or just to know that there are other sufferers close by may be strangely comforting.

Since my PTSD symptoms really started to go from bad to worse I have been planning my suicide. Putting things in order, writing letters, picking out caskets and making funeral arrangements etc. I recently sort of attempted, but because of the love I have for one individual I couldn't go through...