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Oh, sorry, @Survivor3 i wrote that before you popped in

Well…. I’ll chat with myself, I suppose. Asked T for an emergency session and she is booked solid until 5 which is when I work, so that’s fun times. Is it an emergency? Not really, but the thing that really sets me off is imagining my child in college. So college orientation is tomorrow. I...

Anyone around?

I’m curious, can you first see what rate they are expecting?

Yeah. These are the things that apply to sustaining my success in my own career path. I’ve been wanting to change careers because the pandemic has made my business substantially smaller and even though I realize it isn’t my fault it has really lowered my confidence and online work Burnt me...

You know what you are doing. Show your confidence and let your rates reflect it. It will give the person that is hiring you a feeling of security and comfort. Your desire not to work may be more of your defenses against failure or not feeling good enough, but you are. If you don’t want the...

My mind ran a bunch of weird connections after doing emdr. I had real memories with giant blanks around them. Over time things started filling in. I still don’t know if they are real or not, but my therapist said that as real as they feel, we just need to deal with it, so we do.

When I first lived alone, I had fish and a cat. Now that I’ve been married for over 20 years, I have this new fear of when I may be alone someday. I’ve told my therapist that I need to figure out how to like myself enough to be alone. It confuses me because I do isolate. I become overwhelmed...

Do you have any friends with children? I would think that you would need to remain co-conscious if you chose to work with kids or baby sit.

I think that being aware of what’s causing it is the first step into making it go away.

EMDR has a very specific protocol for cptsd. I’d look into that.

People where I live seem to be extremely mask-less. I guess masks don’t matter much considering it isn’t even safe to drive on the highway. Road rage is out of control and a kid was shot and killed a few days ago on the drive back from a baseball game. Our friend is in the hospital due to a...

You both are writing a whole bunch. Too hard to concentrate, but look up Flash EMDR. I believe it might or could do what you are thinking about. It is used to lessen the SUDS before doing traditional emdr in those of us that disassociate too much.

inspiring wisdom, @ladee

Just had a breakfast dinner with my husband, it was yummy. Some rewards, there, since I rarely allow such an unhealthy meal. I’ve been reflecting a bit. My therapist reminded me this week that I’m starting to take care of myself. Getting scans and such. Baby steps. Thank you for the hand...

Doing better. It’s over. Headache and worn out. No polyps or cancer. :-). Cried four times. Once at check in when the man near me joked about dying. Once when they wouldn’t let my husband sit with me in the waiting room (and wouldn’t let me wait in the hall by him), once when the nurse...

Prep nightmare yesterday. I’m so incredibly weak. The taste of the liquid hit my gag reflex, as did the aftertaste. I was so determined to finish the second cup, I tried one last time at 12:15 am. Biggest mistake ever. With the fight against “sick” I was up til 3 am when my body finally...

My therapist was talking the other day about how certain things that aren’t ptsd can cause the same symptoms. I think it bothers her that people were minimizing the seriousness of ptsd by calling everything ptsd, but then she said that the feelings and experiences of others that have the same...

Yeah…. I had one pre-ptsd as well. The procedure was fine, really good sleep. However, the prep I had that time was the movi-prep where you drank gallons and gallons of water. Stuff kept coming back up as I drank it. The doctor seemed annoyed that I couldn’t finish all of the gallons, but my...

Having a colonoscopy screening tomorrow. Family history makes it kind of necessary. Doing the prep. Spent three days with no healthy veggies, fruit or fiber. Now all I can eat is clear liquids and jello. My anxiety and depression feelings are through the roof. Discovered in therapy that I’m...

@Friday thank you for answering me. It really helps put this into perspective. I recently read about “flash emdr” being something used to help highly dissociative clients in the preparation phase of emdr. Traditional emdr had caused me too much stress/disassociation, so we have been doing...

I’m curious about your current age. My flashbacks and such came back in my mid 40’s which I read is common in peri-menopause for survivors. My particular situation was set off by stressors and a bad chain of events at work—but the actual flashbacks were of csa and late teen rape. I personally...

Unsweet. Both. Preferably Green. museum or stadium

Fork. dressy or casual?

I’m happy this worked out. I think going forward, you should consider all conflict or upsets be saved for “in person.” Though I still email my T, we have a limited response system, I no longer process in email and if I’m upset with her, I ask for a phone call or extra session. Emails now tend...