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If that is PTSD, its a nasty nasty thing I wouldn't go near ever, ever not with a 10 foot pole. Firstly, God says love conquers all bad things. He can't love you, he has shown you that, he has neglected you, verbally abused you, made you afraid. I bet at some point he will start to hit you. At...

I think Laurie and Lion said it wonderfully. You may never overcome PTSD. But you can manage it, and you can get the upper hand, and technically you can reduce the symptoms below what is considered "PTSD". But you may find that PTSD is more then in some textbook, or what a counsoler...

This is the bad side of PTSD. This is, not ok? I am 20 now, and have lived with it my whole life, and I have never seen war. But I cannot understand this behavior, and I would not call this "normal PTSD". I have known and met vets and they were not like this. If I was you I would find someone...

It has never gotten as bad as your situation. Sometimes it takes me awhile to figure things out though, and I find routines, and written procedures key to my success. Goal 1: Get to class by such and such time step 1: this is the junk I need, this is where to find said junk (clothing...

I am a young man in school. I used to love math, and mathematical theory, I spent long hours hearing about what physicists had figured out about our world, about Einstein and his work. About how math functioned and it's implications. I was socially awkward, and unskilled, at talking to people...

My biological mother was the same way. Never there for me when I needed her most. She really taught me some unique things about life, and I know she really loved me, and that is more then many can say. However, she isn't human in my eyes and I will not talk to someone who wants to destroy my...

As a child I was taught to have empathy for people and treat them the way I would want to be treated. I should be the person I want to be. I hide a lot of who I am, and make many of my "deep" parts of personality seem "normal". So most people just mistake me for a "normal" person. I spend...

Today is a very bad day. I woke up late for class, and will not go because it will trigger me. I am not afraid of my decision, and I am secure in my grade. My heart is hurting for no apparent reason, and panic is quick to overtake me. I am paranoid, and terrified of judgement. It is time to...

I know what your talking about. It's a dull black liquid blanket that rots the insides away. It's like there is a gaping hole in my chest, and i just want to reach my hand through and pull all the gunk out. It hurts a lot, but keep ahold of yourself. Start self-talk, start journaling, start...

Think about it like this. What reason do you have to make this up? To be quite honest, if it was innocent how likely was it you got something that needed that medicine? Why would that medicine be that big? Why did it happen multiple times? Over how long of a period did this go on? Go with...

We learned in psychology that the nose bypasses the processing centers of the brain. So its like super hooked up to the memory center, and that is why smell is so profound with memories. That being said, I can experience these "phantom smells", and interestingly enough I don't get triggered by...

I've had two seizures in my life. Once when I was around 4. Once when I was a junior in school, it was only 2 years ago. I remembering walking to the counselor's office to talk about college, and I had this dream. I remember this crazy dream, I was screaming obscenities, and people were holding...

I have a few memories come back. Mostly good ones, some traumatic, other I don't know. Due to some recent issues, I think I have triggered a new member. I don't know what it is, but new fears are surfacing and I am starting to understanding some of my personality traits. Without intention I...

God is something I worship, and focus on in my life. I believe he is healing me slowly. Personally PTSD can technically be healed from what my counselor told me. You can lose 2 of the 3 main symptoms like nightmares and intrusive thoughts. The jumpiness is said to stick around for a really long...

Had a similar experience, but not direct memory. I'll probably never know for sure. It doesn't bother me much honestly, and I mean sure it sucks to know that i was abused sexually, and I know that much happened. I know who did it, but i could be wrong about who. I'll just move on. You don't...

@In Exile Coping like a boss there pal, you may have some bads days where you don't do so hot. Your wife may freak out, the kids might have problems. But we here for you, and remember to put these observations, and great/good moments in reserve for those inevitable times. Also, I am not...

Had some sort of misunderstanding with a new friend, i suppose that friendship is gone. The hole that remains is interesting. In spite of feeling cold, empty, and lost. I am actually doing much better then I thought I would be. I am beginning to get stuff done, and I am cooperating quickly...

I told myself, time and again, do not bother them, do not bother them, do not bother them, I love them, I love them, I love them. I stayed honest to who i was, but sometimes I just want to talk to her >.> I don't know if you should take my advice. It hasn't worked for me much. Good luck, I am...

Well, you need to find a happy place in your mind. Think about times away from there, about the times away from it all when you feel totally at peace. Remind yourself of your age, how much bigger you are now, that no one is going to hurt you. Make a check list of how your wife is similar and...

I have night terrors. Typically they come in a few varieties the ones that happen recently are the ones where I wake up with all the anger in the world, my body feels like molten rock, and every muscle is as tense as could be. I left thinking time-and-again "This isn't who I am?" Often times...

About to graduate with my associates degree, and take a couple years off. It's been a long road coming as it was only 5 years ago that I was diagnosed, and I was adopted by a family who couldn't understand my disease. I spent nearly 4 of those 5 years with them, and they can't understand why...

I'll probs delete my account. WIth that being said you really can't blame yourself. You didn't know did you? He might not have known either.

Your going to have to be strong. This is going to be a long battle, one that happens daily. Some days will be really good, and some days you will not know who he is, and sadly, neither will he. I'd say if he hurts you physically to leave immediately. That's a nasty spiral that will shred you...

Feelings paranoid, too many good things are happening it's starting to trigger me a bit. It is one of those feelings where you don't admit to yourself until your talking to someone, and I wonder if I could express my secrets to myself in a sort of personal journal. The deeper meaning today is...

@Ayesha If you need me I'm here for you. I wish I could help.