Search results

Every time I hurt their feels or embarrass them or make them feel uncomfortable I feel awful and every time I'm left to feel unimportant I feel worse. I just find the guilt and shame that comes with every attempt to spend time with people too much. I feel so numb. Disabled Facebook. No point...

Just lost 9 months worth of work on the only thing that give my life meaning or context at this point. I have no faith left in humanity and don't see myself ever being able to have a life worth living. All I see is an endless road of suffering that I can't understand why I have been burdened...

Can't use my right arm without it swelling up and aching, rendering it useless in minutes. I'm in constant pain. Suicidal fantasies were always my main form of relaxing. I've been trying to stop that but right now my meds aren't doing much and I don't know how to make the pain stop or distract...

Right arm goes numb on and off. Useless a lot of the time. Stabbing pain all the time, hands and arms sometimes. Can't type too much. Having a really hard time. Been like this a day or two. Not much to do but medicate, stretch, and ride it out. On my own for the foreseeable future.

Already had PTSD when I went to grad school but it was manageable enough that I could work or go to school. So basically my grad school profs worked me so hard (90 hours a week, constant pressure and threats) that I developed thoracic outlet syndrome. Then they kicked me out for not being able...

So I'm finding that not hearing people speak is a very bad experience. Like depression or panic attacks are the result of my not being able to hear human speech for an extended period. I can do other things and focus on them, but if there isn't a constant chatter like a podcast, narrative film...

When I drive somewhere in the back of my mind I expect to be pulled over. I expect for the stop to go badly. Jail. Shot. Doesn't matter. Something very bad will happen no matter what I do. I've come to expect people to take advantage of any power or weakness to inflict harm for their own...

For not being able to handle the responalities of adult life. For not finding a way to stop my abuse when going along with it was easier. For still letting it prevent me from having a full life. For trusting the wrong people. For not pushing through grad school. For not taking enough care of...

Have lost trust in nearly everyone I know. Hate leave the house if I expect to have to talk to more than one or two people at a time and then only in very safe social situations. Hate obligations and expectations. Can't handle day to day demands of life outside of basic self care. Been through...