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Its so hard to trust people after you've lived thru trauma. I struggle with this as much as any of my symptoms.

Thanks guys. I worry that my PTSD makes me antisocial but I'm starting to see these people are what make me antisocial.

It could be the PTSD. All of those things sound familiar from my end as a sufferer. However, it is something you need to discuss with him. Ask him to educate you about it. If it is PTSD that makes him pull away, then he needs his space. Its very common. The world can get to be too much. But he...

I just posted something similar. For me its more that I can't trust the people in my life. They all hurt me. I do have a support group that I contact when I'm suicidal. These are the closest friends to me. They do show up for me if they can. I make sure they know the gravity of the situation. I...

Did I say I hate people? Hate 'em.

I feel like I'm always being used. Most people only come to me when they want something. Very few come to me for any other reason. Even my closest friends. Or at least they used to be close friends, but now they only call me when they want me to watch their dog. I'm not a bitch to these people...

God, I know that feeling. Keep trying. And I will, too.

I have a lot of guilt for where my actions lead me that is tied with my PTSD. Is it possible you feel guilt as well? You are able to move forward with your live and your friend can't? Maybe you felt fine in prison because you felt like you were paying your dues and honoring the loss others felt...

Interesting. I didn't realize I had hallucinations until this thread.

It's interesting. When I reread me original post in this thread I state "I had to hit them." It was a deep need for protection, a deep anger and worry. I hit them in the face/jaw. A place where I've been hit before. It felt like I needed to hit them there to really shut them up. There is also...

Change, these are all great suggestions. This one in particular: should help me to engage with the meaning. I feel these women were about to betray me, tell something intimate about me that wold humiliate me. They could represent both me and my general relationship with other women over the years.

Francie, What an interesting thought. I'll have to ponder this. Arfie, this is good to know I'm not alone. Certified nut or not. Unfortunately, by the time I felt comfortable enough to ask myself what the h3ll the dreams were about, I had forgotten some important details. They definitely had a...

Thanks Change. I need to dialogue with those anger feelings I guess.

Welcome to the forum. I've done the same thing--ignore the PTSD and hope it goes away. But it doesn't. For me I kept adding new little traumas and triggers until just about everything became a trigger. No I can't hide my flashbacks. Though they are usually small 'No, No, No' comments and pass...

I'm a woman and had a strange set of nightmares where I had to hit women--just out-and-out rage. Not sure why--I have no trauma or recent experience that it specifically addresses. Physically and emotionally exhausted the whole next day. Raging headache after. The day previous was pretty good...

Strange how telling people you have PTSD is like 'coming out.' Definitely work to find a therapist who understands trauma and you are comfortable with. This may take a couple of rounds. As AshDawn said, learn about PTSD. This site has helped me grasp my symptoms even more. I went to Intensive...

I was where you wife is. Muse has sound advice. It is not an easy road.

She shouldn't have made the comment about not wanting to be your mother. She shouldn't judge you. Try talking it out with her at the next session. You may discover something new about yourself. You may also decide to sever the relationship. I had to do this with a therapist and it worked out. I...

Rusty, welcome to the forum. It sounds you want to support and help her and probably need some PTSD work yourself. I, too, grew up in a verbally abusive household. It can be very damaging. Continue seeking counseling and reach out for help. Its the only way to heal those old wounds effectively...

Welcome to the forum, robot. I have PTSD. Though I don't quite fit your needs (my history is non-military) there are some basic truths none-the-less. There are quite a few people on this forum that will be able to provide you the right support and there are plenty of threads dealing with the...

I only remember bad things, too. I have a hard time remembering the good times in my life. Friends will say, 'oh remember when we did that we had so much fun" and I have no clue what they are talking about. Its like the traumas are so big they've taken over my whole brain.

It sounds like you were dissociative at the young age. I did it as well. I remember stapling my thumb nail. Twice. As for whether you are incorrectly blaming your parents. Only you can decide that. I have to deal with similar issues and find this d@mn PTSD is so confusing. On one hand, I...

Its like the details are the little nuances that make it an ongoing trauma. Those are the things that trigger flashbacks for me.

It sounds very possible. I haven't experienced multiple personalities but I have had later in life trauma that brought earlier ones out. Can you describe it more? If not, thats ok. Putting it into words might help you figure it out.

The thing about PTSD is that its confusing. Its hard to find the original triggers because your brain just tries to protect you from the experience. I had totally forgotten this time when I was 9 or 10 and my family went on the only vacation we ever had. We were driving on the Tapanzee Bridge...