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Joy, welcome to the community! You're in a safe place with kind people and I hope that you'll find this place helpful, as well as informative. Hugs if you accept them. :hug: I'm really sorry to hear what you're going through, it's obvious that you're dealing with a lot of pain. The one thing I...

I went to a DID specialist a while back and they actually say they don't have to witness anything firsthand, though. They list a bunch of symptoms and you must have have x of x to be diagnosed with it, as well as some sensory and medical questions. It took about two weeks, two hour sessions...

Hi guys, I'm a bit conflicted and would like some opinions. I see my therapist weekly and we've discussed my dissociation episodes where I used to go by different names and act differently. Here's where things get confusing. Initially, I told my therapist that I started remembering my abuse...

I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through, I can't imagine it being easy. To answer your question, yes and no. On some days, I'm terrified of showering. My childhood abuser would... "do certain things" while 'helping me' shower. It's strange, because I'm either terrified of going into...

I'm in the same boat with you. For people who have endured trauma, the brain uses its safety coping mechanism. Dissociation. It could be that there are things trying to make its way to the surface, but it can also be your brain's way of saying "This is too much right now, powering down..." While...

Congratulations, @Sheree! That's amazing news! | That's amazing, @Carmen J. Brown! :hug: Lots of luck to both of you! One thing that made me smile today was knowing that I have an amazingly supportive therapist that makes me feel strong and confident. I usually wake up severely depressed, but...

Makes sense, as I'm soon 23. I actually was sleeping on my stomach when it first happened. Then it happened while trying to sleep on my back. I actually tried, but couldn't move my fingers. I actually could barely breathe, it felt awful. I can try it next time, but have Arthritis, I can't move...

I've heard the term, but I never looked into what it really was. I'll definitely do that now. Thanks for that. Well that's good it only happened once, let's hope it stays that way.

Thank you very much for the response! I will say that I know no one who has ever experienced being unable to move or speak during sleep, even when under intense stress or overwhelmed with emotion. Hearing you say it's common gives me a tiny bit of comfort, but it feels so terrifying that it's...

Tonight would be one of the most frightening moments I've had since my child abuse. I don't like self-diagnosing, as I find it unhealthy, but I simply did a Google search on the symptoms and Sleep Paralysis is what came up. There are several things that I feel conflicted about, here: my...

I'm right there with you. It's so hard to know what to do next. How to feel, where we belong. It's something I think that only time, patience, self-compassion and therapy can heal. Something to remember is that trauma likes to trick us and it is a master of trickery. When we think things are...

I sleep with my door shut (and locked). If I hear the sound, I often think my childhood abuser has somehow broken in even though he doesn't know where I live. I start pacing around the room until I can ignore it the best I can and hide under my blanket and fall asleep. It creeps me out. I don't...

I'm so sorry to hear that. Having memories of sexual abuse resurface can definitely be scary. Flashbacks are not easy to live with, either. It's normal for someone to forget about their abuse, though. It was so damaging to the brain that it did what it needed to so that you could survive. Forget...

I'm right there with you. Sometimes, we tend to forget the things that subconsciously hurts us the most to the point where we'd consciously no longer remember the events. It's our brain's way of saying "This is too much, I need a break." So, it'll forget, because all it's been doing is thinking...

I'm really sorry that this is happening to your friend, it can't be easy for either of you. Speaking from experience, as someone who tried to kill himself many times and as someone who pushed people away because of it, I can say this: the only thing you can do is let him know that you care...

Interesting! Dreams are interesting for sure, thanks for sharing.

I personally don't use the term normal in general because I feel like normal is relative and subjective. However, I have D.I.D, PTSD and memory issues. I forgot who my own mother, sister and father were, for a complete day. This happens several times a year, but the length of the memory loss...

I'm truly sorry to hear that, @theshadowoftheliving. I may not be going through what you're going through, but I'm right there with you and I'm here for you, offering my sympathy and understanding. I know what it's like to live life and what it's like just to get through the day or week. I...

I'm not sure what this nightmares means in terms of my PTSD or abuse but I have this nightmare where the adult version of myself sits down with my abuser and watches him abuse the little version of myself, giving him a hug for doing so, afterwards. Then, my abuser, after the hug, stabs me with a...

I have never discussed this with my therapist mainly because it's something that scares me. A year ago, I had this abusive therapist, who, after I told about my abuse, said that I was just a bad as my abuser. She told me I was a liar who just wanted therapists to feel sorry for me. She told me...