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Thank you for sharing keep-dancing. I am speechless from your experience and inspired by your courage.

Hello Sighs. Sorry to hear about your trouble! I try to give the most honest input I can.Your post was uncomfortable for me to read, because it brought back memories. In short; I can relate. I am a sufferer and there were times in my life were I was a real asshole to my partner. Not unlike your...

@Springer80 I cant take too much time. If I am to slow, the bureaucracy will cut off my welfare. :dead: I already feel that everything is way, way too much for me, but there is really very little I can do about that, but trying to get through these weeks with some dignity. :blackeye: After a...

Made me think of this: Dead Link Removed :D :D :D Notice the "Damaged" on the forehead.

Yesterday walked a few miles to grocery store and carried the bags, which weighted several tons, back home. All was well, until I noticed my finger went numb. Now, 30 hours later, its nearly back to normal. Lesson learned? Nothing, really. Today 70 minutes of my usual excercise. And just like...

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I think you cant force it, and it seems you try to. I am starting to get a bad vibe about the whole thing.

Just a info: A social worker is not a therapist. In germany, they are just like generell guidance guides, for people with problems. I have to go to her to get my welfare. She just assesses my situation, tries to be helpfull, and sees if I do anything to get out of welfare. :) I have made many...

Needed one and a half hour for a routine I could do in fifty minutes. Meh. Dumbbells and bodyweight, as always. Feel super weak and unfocused today for some reason. Training was a real pain the ass. Sunday next session. Hope its gonna be some fun, this wasnt. But feel good now.

No. xD I really wish I was a native speaker right now. :D Step by step: The red flag appears, a white 16 in it. Yey, I have TONS of alert. I klick on the red flag. A window called Alerts opens. All the new alerts have a yellow background for one or two seconds. Not a star or a mark, or anything...

@Tanishq There is also a yellow indicator that quickly vanishes. It is behind the text that appears when you leftclick on the flag.The window that leftclicking opens is called Alerts. I am not talking about the red flag with the number in it.

The little flag on the upper ride hand corner, which shows you your alerts. When you click on it, the recent alerts are in yellow, but that color fades away way to quickly to be usefull. I wish it stayed much longer. That is all :D

@Hope4Now & @JEKBreatheandBelieve Thanks guys. :hug: Good to hear. In my inital post "discouraging" was maybe a bad choice of word. I should have gone for "super friggin scary". :D Also, im alread embarressed about my super harsh response to @itsKismet. Kind of trigger happy today I guess. Sorry.

@itsKismet I really have a hard time with your post. I mean .... seriously? My therapy is only starting the month after next and.... ... if that would not get to me I would not be taking it seriously, now, would I? I have a really, really hard time not lashing out at you right now...

Hello. It is brave of you trying to be proactive and constructive. Good luck!

Well, that is discouraging news.

Thanks for that post. I can relate. I just consider myself borderline manic and try to see myself like that. It is just overflowing confidence and numbness towards feelings of others, and it really sucks. I often do stupid shit in this mode, getting drunk, arguing, spending money. Feeling all...

HAHA! That made me laugh out loud. I will remember this. I can be Mr Grumpy Shit :poop: sometimes. Probably more often then I want to admit. Now I have a name for that. Love it

Hello Emlindom, welcome and good luck! Love your bost Angelkeeper, just not that tiny part of it: That is just not true and a very dangerous thing to say.

Yeah, kinky stuff rocks. :p I learned that I should just not engage with it during bad or stressfull times. Shame is, most times nowadays are very stressfull, so my sexlife suffers. My trauma was not of sexuell nature, and still I feel super bad sometimes about the kinky fantasies and...

LOL @sallyanne. Is the bible also against punctuation and legible sentences? Jesus Christ...

If I would get an € for every time some asshole told me I just need to "Let go" or "Move on" or "Stop focusing on it" I could buy me the new gpu I want in a heartbeat.

To soften the blow from @Sighs a bit: It will get better. :) If he works hard on himself. Not if you work hard on him.

Wow, that is difficult. As a gay male with lifelong PTSD, it definately adds to the difficulties. Especially in a non-understanding environment. Took a long time for me to be okay with it. Now I would not have it any other way, but it took me a long time to get there. Here is the thing...

I was raised by a narcassictic grandmother. She could not be wrong. In her reality, it was just an absolute impossibility. She had some totally insane idea how the air-blow-thingie on her car functioned. I was 13 or so, and got really angry about her being so insanely dumb and stupid. I...