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I am not very familiar with ptsd nightmares as I only began having them six weeks ago and am in the middle of year 5 since the main trauma. My peaceful sleep is definitely increased by anti-depressants. In fact they make sleep so peaceful I have preferred it to wakefulness, often sleeping days...

Don't know if you still need a friend but I do. I live in Venice and currently can't drive, although I hope that will change soon. It's been a while since your post but thought I would reply anyway.

That's funny. Hopefully there is a new career in my NEAR future! But, thank you for posting. I find it hard to come here and engage as I do everywhere. I have spent the last week in bed begging for my natural death. I mean, how hard can it be? Harder than my week of trying, apparently ;-) I am...

Not sure I can help, but I relate. Year 5 of severe ptsd, the kind that makes time lapse and though my teeth are falling out, I never quite recall to do something about it. Recently I realized, accepted, swallowed I will never be the same, ever. I am a new me with perhaps exacerbated flaws, or...

Been in therapy even before the 3 sexually based crimes one after the other, all that were unrelated. It seemed like we were dealing, or I was dealing, but the blows kept coming. At some point I crossed to the other side and the places I have ventured to emotionally, physically, socially and...

I went to the doctor a year ago and was baffled filling out the forms. Today's Date? Age? Date since last exam? I had no idea. I used math skills to piece the information together but left stunned by how much time had passed since the crimes. Complete gaps in my memory and it simply didn't seem...

I'm sorry. Sounds like you have good reasons for the roller coaster. Reminding myself of that sometimes soothes me. be gentle with u.

So glad I might have helped a bit, I was feeling nervous commenting for the first time. I have tendency to become preachy in my desperation I might hear my own voice. I am extreme in my affect and communications. Please forgive this as my intentions are pure. It is my experience mom's don't...

Hi Abstract. Thanks for the contact. Gosh, tell the truth, it is a haze. Memory loss is my most startling symptom causing me to not recognize myself and have the most concern for myself. So bare with me, I may not remember things I did to help myself, but here is what I currently recall. I...

Thanks brat17, you brought tears. Our experience seems similar, in the relentlessness of the chaos. The spiral continues, and the suicidal thoughts plague me, but for some reason today, I see some point to it. I need to embrace insane. I am. It's ugly. But knowing it is possible for anyone...

Hell is raining down blame on me tonight, so know we are parallel in containing the feeling of others that are too dumb or unwilling to own. You are the identified patient. Ironically something my mom told me recently. Kind of like a pawn in a family game of chess, you are thrown into the ring...

It's been a while. Depression and despair no words could possibly describe. I left this planet 4 years ago and the most surprising thing of all, is that I am still here. There obviously is some aspect that has a will to live beyond my awareness. Positive it is time to end this misery, the only...