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I get it… i also rage out at times. What helps me a lot is dancing to feel good music. I dance with so much energy, with anger to go with it too. Just fed up of all sorts. Sometimes I just feel like crying believe or not, I just let it out whether people like or not.
I feel so much better...
I can't remember how many times I've felt utterly awful… not knowing which direction to take.
It's bloody tough mate! But I have hope that all these bad moments we all have, are there for a purpose.
Be patient dude. "Good things comes to those that wait" so remain strong And keep fighting all those negative moments and turn them into positive ones.
I can relate to this as I also have times when I'm well then one week I notice a difference in my brain , it's like the feel good chemicals...
Write your negative thoughts/emotions out mate… this is what I've been doing for the past 8 weeks now and it helps.
Have a talk on the forum chat.
Take it easy dude
So to something I hadn't mentioned on my first thread. After a rough chat on the forum I decided it was time to tell/ask my Mum if she noticed anything.
The story goes...I used to attend a Hospital abroad back in the late 90's to receive asthma treatment and I stayed there for about 1 week each...
* Quick update - I have a review appointment next Friday :-) which means I will be able to discuss my difficulty coping with the termination of the Therapy sessions, and put the question forward in terms of returning with the same T. I am positive, just need to be patient and keep my mind active...
I too struggle with "trusting others" throughout life. And it has shown that when I do trust someone it's there to stay…
In terms of contacting my therapist outside of sessions, I don't have this access nor have I enquired about it.
Right now what seems to be helping me is my Training course...
Personally I don't think leaving is abandonment as it shows you have 1. Felt the pain… courageous 2. Learnt to accept it 3. Not necessarily "moved on" but you have matured with it and used the tools/skills in your daily life and perhaps for other struggles too.
I'm feeling confident that I will be able to work with the same T again no matter the feelings, attachments that have come about. I must learn to overcome this.
This is such a complex subject to discuss about.
Thanks Ms Spock, just had a sneak peek at the links you sent me, and self compassion seems to be something I need to work on too.
I did make a good connection, i did not prepare myself for the latter do…
Your last sentence made me look away and take a long breath! I need to give my self time...
I should be working on that aspect this coming week. Whether it's seeing him the T again for one last time, organise a continuation with the same or different T. If the continuation with the same T isn't possible then perhaps a "photo" for future memory, this would be incredible.
I must add -...
It has been difficult… you mentioned a very good point about "lacking boundaries", I haven't thought about this before, it does however explain the the emotions and strong bond shown throughout the sessions to the (last).
I decided to join in order to help me, get out of the sadness of thinking...
In terms of hopefully having that final handshake… I've sent an email to the team so I'm sure something will be sorted out, or even continuing with the same therapy. My emotional response was shown from what I did and said as well as how I reacted so would be wonderful to discuss further...
Absolutely, I mentioned to the T that although I did not want to hamper my/our journey I still felt happier asking the Q, I was upfront and honest, therefore making me happier after all.
Would rather have the situation as it is, Instead of not being sincere, duelling on it… then the "if only"...
When you say "because you were forthcoming about what you wanted, knowing the answer, and you left him a note". Are you referring to even do I knew the outcome of a potential friendship, I still wrote the note?
Reading your comment about "he will remember you" is very touching… I really really...
True hence why I went down this route to try and help
Perhaps the T won't remember me… they may do as they too seemed genuine. I mentioned before how T wanted to go somewhere but saw me crying in the corridor so perhaps they went back to the room, to feel the same pain?
I could be totally...
As my first T to potentially aid me in this tough time, I couldn't have asked for more really. I didn't have a clue who I was seeing.
Who ever it would be, I might not have had the same click and may have moved on, but as o felt genuine response, there was no reason to change T.
I knew there...
I did read somewhere that if a note/letter is written to the T it may mean that the client hasn't fully learnt all the skills to fight feeling down… I am suffering with depression not sure how strong.
Thanks for your example
It's fantastic to be grateful because people tend to only critise and forget to appreciate. Hence why I wrote a note. I did not give this directly to the T as didn't have it ready. I wrote it at the main reception and instructed for it to be given to the T.
A lot of times we must be harsh to learn.
I was indecisive whether to add what I added about whether it was free or not. Sure nothing is "free" these days and what I said can have many interpretations to many people.
Do you mind elaborating on hefty egos? Just so I can get better...
The T too mentioned that nothing could be done in terms of friendship. But trying to understand this at the actual time and even now is a a tough one.
In terms of giving me advice on the aftermath of feeling like you've lost a really good friend for life… didn't really have that explained...