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Yeah, I think I'm OK... It's been a crazy time... The place where I work is being taken over by a new place. We have heard for months that our pay would go up. By $10,000. I had visions of being able to buy a new car with the extra money... and then I got my new contract in the mail, and it...

It's strange, if anyone had asked me if I was angry even a year ago, I would have said "no"... I didn't even know how to know if I was angry if I wasn't yelling - I never even realized you could feel it in your body... I'm starting to feel like an anger expert at this point! In a strange way...

Feeling much less negative today.. Had EMDR yesterday.... and even though I felt like I was hit by a truck afterwards, I think it was good... I think yesterday was the toughest session yet... I let myself feel whatever I felt or was thinking.... The first few sessions, I kept trying to force...

The more I deal with all of this stuff, the more I realize how f*cked up I am... I wish I'd dealt with this stuff 20 years ago, instead of at this age... I tell myself I wasn't ready, but I'm sure not ready now either....

I've re-written a response to your message about 10 times... I'm just too upset to answer.. but I really appreciate your insights, @Sophy

I'm sorry I didn't respond til now... @Sideways, your message means a lot to me right now... I didn't respond, but it really touched me... I've spent all night beating myself up for posting it... I put really personal stuff out there, and got told I'm a bigot... It shouldn't bother me, but it...

I'm sure me suddenly expecting him to pay attention to my stuff isn't easy. My T tells me that I basically traded a narcissistic pedophile abuser for a narcissistic husband... Which I'm realizing is probably true, unfortunately.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't be dumping my stuff on people...

Thank you. I really appreciate the reply. I'm just having a hard time right now with everything in life... My husband told me yesterday that he doesn't think there's room in the relationship for my PTSD. Then I got banned from the thread... I was hoping I'd feel better after a night of...

I graduated University and everything! I can do that editing stuff! (I'm definitely done with the flashback.... ) Thanks.... I guess I'll stick around... There's some really amazing people here.... I'll have to find a new dog pic I guess . ?

Suddenly I feel like Grandpa.... I used to work in IT, and now I can't figure this place out... There's something funny about that! Do I edit my email address out? Or do you? Grandpa doesn't understand LOL

There's some really cool people on here, so sure... My email is now hidden! lol

Suddenly being at meetings at work tomorrow is something I WANT to be doing.... Anything, other than sniffing a little bottle that smells like a Christmas wreath...

OK... You made me laugh... Actually, I had a huge fight about two feet from where I am, so it won't work for that, but your comments mean so much right now... thank you...

Is there actually a way to send a private message on this Board? I'd give you my email in case I ever get kicked off for being GAY, but I can't figure things out...

Can sort of see the room at this point... almost breathing normally... f*ck i hate flashbacks

I'm sorry for this... I'm really sorry.... I'm like trapped..... i'm so sorry

I just remembered I got some fragrances or whatever because of people on here..... guess i should try em...

Sorry, I'm a mess... I read your message... and like always I understand you..... I wanna hide... damn... i'm in a flashback... I hate this so much..... hard to type....

I was so close to hitting de-activate, but I'm not thinking right... I had a huge fight with the husband today - like looking into divorce huge... then I came here and got called a bigot... This has been the worst day of my life...

Thank you.... Of all the people here, I feel you understand.... I'm not sure why, but I feel it.... Damn, I'm sitting here sobbing....

OK, this isn't the place for me... I just got told I'm not allowed to respond to the Conversion Therapy thread like I'm some kind of bigot. There have been some really nice people on here, but I didn't come here to feel attacked. I'm done

Maybe only Gay people should be allowed to vote on straight marriages... It makes just about as much sense as straight people voting on my rights. I'm thinking that we need to start Straight conversion therapy. People shouldn't be straight... We should send them to counsellors to learn to be...

I'm not talking literally... I'm saying that straight people should be listening to members of the LGBT community on whether anti-Gay "conversion" therapy is acceptable or not. I guess it's OK that hearing people can tell Deaf people they're "broken" and should have a cochlear implant attached...

It was DEFINITELY on the same level - lying to desperate people who hate themselves so much that they see a "therapist" who tells them they can "become straight". Deception? How about having the now "straight" client to marry and have children - because there's no deceit in leading some poor...