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Yes, I'll read a sentence and have to re-read what I read sometimes. Occasionally multiple times. Or the chapters I read, I can't recall the details and end up re-reading them. I recently posted about this subject :) I struggle with writing. I'll make all sorts of mistakes so I re-read what I...

@Sideways thanks. Ironically I forget how depression and stress plays a part in memory, my T reminded me about stress hormones too. I guess I get so focused on the dissociation bit, I overlook the whole package I'm dealing with and how it all contributes to my symptoms. Again thank you ❤️‍

Getting a PTSD socialist sounds like a good idea. If they have training with dissociative disorders that's a plus! It sounds like you you cannot right away though there are things you can do to help in the mean time! Learning mindfulness, ground techniques, DBT skills might be helpful! Some...

I was talking to a friend who was reminiscing about her childhood and a favorite game, one that was a favorite of mine too. But I could barely make any conversation about it, because I barely remember playing it. I use to know, but now I don't. It's breaking my heart and it's so defeating when I...

Thank you gor all the replies! @whiteraven thank you for the suggestion :) The book doesn't seem to be in print anymore though. I only buy Kindle books for privacy, so used paper backs won't do. Unfortunately my parts are at odds with one another. It's not as bad as it once was. There's not...

2 distinct states. So you can have 1 alter and yourself. The number of parts isn't what matters, it's that you have parts and have amnesia and a different diagnosis isn't a better explanation. People who dont quite meet DID requirements might be OSDD.

Short answer: no you can't lose your soul. What you describe sounds like dissociation, maybe a dissociation disorder if it's chronic. It can feel like you've lost your soul. I relate to this a lot, I dissociative 24-7 for years. Sometimes I feel like my soul had depleted. I'd just get more and...

I would argue that influence is from other sources (like high stress or perhaps cognitive dissonance). What I said has to do with bare bones dissociation and DID. That isn't to say someone with DID can't have strange episodes or beliefs, merely that psychotic symptoms and delusions are not a...

Eve wrote a lovely description and I second it. It sounds like dissociation to me. It can be nice I guess. It's really easy to be chill when I dissociate and I don't have to feel the stress. I like that. I don't find it unpleasant unless I dissociate badly and that frightens me to feel nothing...

@whiteraven thanks for the reply! It gave me a better lead on what to look up! I was feeling so lost and overwhelmed. My T and I didn't really discuss how we were gonna proceed once I realized I had alters... unless I just forgot. She was trying to help me with communication but I haven't been...

Everyone is different. Some of us are unusual. We don't always clearly fit into boxes. Visual hallucinations are more rare, but that doesn't mean it can't or doesn't happen to people. People who have schizophrenia can have visual hallucinations. Unusual, yeah, unheard of, not at all. Not to say...

Though I generally don't, I can lose my sense of hunger. Usually in times of great distress/depression. When that has happened, I stuck to eating schedules because otherwise I wouldn't eat. I ate because I knew I needed it. Not because I felt hungry. Eating at least twice a day, drinking non...

My first few months I was a wreck with dissociation. My T and I just tried out different grounding and DBT emotional regulation techniques until we found what worked. I also tried things outside of therapy. If she notices I'm off or dissociating, she'll make a comment about how I appear or ask...

I don't see my alters. Not even internally. I don't feel them around me. What I feel is an internal experience or how they experience the world. The only time I've hallucinated was a bad allergic reaction to medication. People can see things for all sorts of reason so perhaps consider those...

For those with experience with DID or OSDD, what are/were things you worked on in the beginning?

I think if we've ignored or blocked out feelings of anger, it's normal for it to come back built up as rage. It's my experience when I refuse to listen or too dissociated to feel my feelings they just scream louder to be taken seriously. Feelings naturally ebb and flow. So anger coming and going...

Abstract, good on you for making progress with the dissociation! It's rough though that reading is still a challenge. I'm not sure 100% if for me it's dissociation vs something else like depression. Or even challenges layered together. I just know the onset coincides. I know in general the more...

Heh, I'm having this issue in recent years. I'd watch something but get upset because character's are so unhealthy relationally, with boundaries, sexist, etc. Then friends will say they love that character and I'm just hoping the writers with help the characters grow because it's hurtful to...

Depersonalization and derealization hit me when I was around 16. There was other changes like trouble sleeping and difficulty reading. I don't mean trouble reading actual text, but difficulty with memory or concentration. I use to love reading fiction before the dissociation hit, afterwards I...

@Soupsarah Thank you for sharing about yourself and the people you know! That sounds like a very tough conflict between your male and female parts! Good on you for working together to make things smoother! I know of 5 parts, but I'm still sorting it out. My male part is really good natured...

You can take in a letter and have your T read it, if that helps. I've known people to do that. I first talked to my T about dissociation through email because I wanted to be sure she knew how to help me. When I really have a hard time talking I actually do sand tray, but not all therapists have...

Oh, I understand that DID does not equal transgender and vice vera. I'm aware opposite sex parts are common, especially in the case of sexual abuse. I guess if anything I wonder how others feel about different gendered parts and if that ever caused confusion.

I want to clarify to anyone reading, that this thread isn't solely for transgender persons. Just anyone who has dealt with alters of different genders. So feel free to share :) Thanks for sharing your story @Muttly I appreciate it. I do have some questions. Do you find the lgbt+ community...

It can be scary to tell someone about dissociation. It's hard for me to tell my T things too. You don't have to "get over it". You can be scared and still speak up. Your T won't judge you and will understand especially if they help clients with PTSD. I speak up about things I'm uncomfortable...

It sounds like you're dissociating. Going numb in an attempt to protect yourself and feeling small (can be feeling like a child again). This is a disconnect from your current situation (the adult you in a safe loving situation). Depersonalization is dissociation from the self so you could call...