Is this dissociation

[Stephani8o]

I've started emdr with my therapist and when ever the feelings come I lose them. I have my eyes closed and it gets all floaty. I rather enjoy it but I can snap out of it really fast. On some level I'm conscious that I'm doing it. Today it happened and I totally lost focus so stopped my therapist from the knee tapping. Maybe I'm just daydreaming? She has never said it was dissociation until today so I'm a little confused.

Do other people feel this way? Is it a nice feeling?

Another thing that's weird is when I was getting emotional I'm pretty sure I heard my inner child say I don't want to.

 

[EveHarrington]

Daydreaming is dissociation.

Dissociation is a spectrum. Everyone dissociates in one way or another, ie daydreaming, zoning out while driving, etc. The other end of the spectrum is dissociative identity disorder with separate personalities. Those of us with ptsd tend to be somewhere in the middle.

But yes, it sounds like you were indeed experiencing a type of dissociation.

 

[Reflections]

Eve wrote a lovely description and I second it. It sounds like dissociation to me.

It can be nice I guess. It's really easy to be chill when I dissociate and I don't have to feel the stress. I like that. I don't find it unpleasant unless I dissociate badly and that frightens me to feel nothing at all.

 

[Freida]

Yep! Dissociation can be nice --- which is kinda why we do it! And the voice in your head is normal too - especially the ones that say no. Let your t know when it happens so she can help you talk to it.