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I still do the same thing since 1978. At different times it goes away for a while but always comes back. Last night I woke up 3 times the bed wet from sweat and the covers all on the floor. wake up almost screaming and hitting at something. My wife at times attempts to wake me up sometimes...

Blessing and Prayers to the families back at home!!!!!!!!!

I guess I am the reverse of all of you. I hate the younger me and never want to think about that time. I was not good enough then an it plays into my problems now.

I had this problem with one of my T's. An after a while I asked about it too. She explained it to me that she does not want me to come dependent on her that would cause more problems to have to handle in the future. She was there to help me to deal with the past not to judge what I am...

Thanks for the reply and understanding of the true real problem. As you stated Masturating ain't the same. I have started the drugs. They are not doing anything as of yet. I also feel as you do that sex with another lady will not do. Thanks.

Thanks to everyone. Masturbation just does not do it anymore. I can't get my mind off of it. I am OK some what at work because I am so busy but when at home or in a public place all I can think about it what it would be like to see every woman nude an be with them. I have never been that way...

My loving wife has put up with me for our 37 years of marriage. Last fall in Sept she tells me that she was abused sexually as a child. Now I know why she has never liked sex. That she relived those times most if not all of our marriage. So she started treatment of her own with a T. She has...

Thanks I am trying but it seems hopeless

great thoughts an superior writing.

Well I fired my therapyist per say at the VA and changed to another one. This one does EMDR. I am still low very low an think about it every day about plan an replan I just don'g know any more why to go on but I do.

I have not been able to cry since my father passed away. Did not cry that day or any day since. Only person that could make me cry was my father.

I have my wife and daughter and that is about it

You don't have to worry about alcohol and me. Already been thru the alcoholic phase. Just can't find the hobby all the ones I love to do take deep thought. Every time I attempt to do tem I can't get into deep thought. All I can think of is the mission in 77 when I get into deep thought...

Amen.

Thanks It does help some. One day above ground again. Why I don't know but one more day. Thanks Been that route before an you are correct. I would end it before going that route again. Attempting to find a new what ever to handle it now. Thanks. Again.

I agree with you Jimmy. I play to escape my own mind most of the time when I can lock into my WW1 and WW2 games. Attempted Sniper 3 but it got to real too fast. Like I said I use it to escape into another world out of this one an become someone else for a while. Playing Battlefield 1 and...

Has anyone been so tired of life they just do not want to go on. I am just so tired I just don't care if I get tun over by a Mack truck. Only fear is it won't kill me. Say my therapist at the VA today an a even lower now than wen I went in. It will be 40 years this fall from my event an...

I got volunteered in 77 for one of their OPs an I still have nightmares. Have destroyed more mattress and pillows in the last 40 years than I care to think about.

It was a short course only person in it for a special op. in 77.

First of all Thank for your service to your community. The one thing I attempt to do is pump a ball that I care almost every where. One of those they give you when you give blood. I find it is de-stresses me some when I pump it when I fell the stress coming on.

Any clothes that make me blend in. I have to be able to hide. Normal when I am off an going out in public. Jeans, blue jean shirt with t-shirt. Baseball cap. Only wear dress up and suits to formal things an only when I have too. Around the house old jeans an T-shirts with hoodie or field...

Not in our house. It was 14 before I knew there was anything like that. Had to hide them from my mom once I did. They were not allowed in my home either.

An the funny thing I don't think I will ever fit. Just turned 60 an my own Mother an Brother which are army brats from life with Dad retirement. I don't even feel like I fit there. I am loved but it just is strange. Thanks.

Very moving Thank you

Well, An old dog can change as I am finding out. Was in Nam when Nam was not a war anymore. Black Ops with a team of Rangers while at Bragg. Was volunteered by my LT at the time. I wasn't asked but told I had volunteered because I was part of the company shooting team plus had a nack for...