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  1. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    How do you let go and move on when everything you do is a dead end? When you realize what a loser you are?
  2. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Why is it that nothing helps? No one can help you when you need it. I was completely manipulated and screwed over. Set up and made to look like a dumbass. I used to love myself before all of this. Now, I hate everything about my life, I am stuck in a rut, every decision I make bites me in the...
  3. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    My therapist keeps telling me I will figure it out. She gives me suggestions and nothing works. I never felt like this before and no one can help me. I feel confused about my identity after being set up. I know I will be alone forever, but the pain is killing me! The emotions, just everything is...
  4. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I’m failing my studying and also depressed because I have no friends. Sometimes, I think therapy makes things worse. I can’t get rid of the charges or fix my life. I’m so tired and drained.
  5. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I will probably always grieve it because I lost so many good opportunities that I can’t get beck. So many bad things have happened, and no good things. You are right, there is nothing anyone can do, so I have to suck it up. No one cares anyway. I try to be nice to people and it just backfired in...
  6. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    When everyone is projecting on you, how do you know who you really are? I think my ex was a manipulator, but now my life is so messed up. None of what I want is happening because I am not who I thought I was. This whole projection thing is awful. My life used to be so goo, and now the only thing...
  7. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I hate life! It’s all a bunch of bullshit lies! Everyone is a liar. I can’t get any of my dreams! Everything is a projection and I am a fake! It takes time they say...I don’t believe it. I have no friends, no love. I am so lonely but I don’t meet people I have things in common with.
  8. AnnieMae

    Spilling my Beans

    I totally feel this way. Like talking about it doesn’t change anything for me. If only I could “do” something, but then I get overwhelmed. 🤨
  9. AnnieMae

    Good & Evil Vs. Sick & Recovering

    I never experienced the gods vs evil thing until I went through my trauma with my ex. He set me up and lied, now I experience it all the time.
  10. AnnieMae

    Being wrongfully accused.

    It happens to me. My ex husband set me up so now I notice it a lot more.
  11. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    What do you do when your life has fallen apart, you have no friends, you’re tired, you’ve been victimized, but you still have dreams- even though your dreams are a constant failure? No one can help you since you messed up and let someone manipulate you? How do you trust people?
  12. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I feel like such a failure for letting emotions get in the way. Feelings are awful...well, at least bad feelings. The thing that is most horrible is that I lost so many opportunities and now it’s harder to accept that I am a failure compared to what I used to be. The therapist can say all she...
  13. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I had so many dreams and hopes that were killed by “trauma.” I am so depressed yet I act like everything is ok because there is truly no help. I should have fought. I should have done so many things but I can’t change what has been done and I can’t change the way I feel. I am coming to terms...
  14. AnnieMae

    What do you wish you'd been taught about money as a kid?

    My family was actually a good influence on me as far as saving and not living beyond my means. My ex was the one that always told me that I was too stingy, so I loosened up and it has snowballed out of co trol. Now, I use spending as a way to deal with anxiety and depression 🤦🏻‍♀️. I have...
  15. AnnieMae

    What do you need emotionally right now, and why?

    I need something in my life to go the way I want it too lol. I need hugs from my nieces and nephews (I adore them since I have no children, and I can spoil them lol). The one thing that would let me heal completely would be if the judge even knew what I went through. A small validation would be...
  16. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Thanks, @woodsy1. I just wish there was a way to fix my life and situations. I just keep feeling like everything is going down the drain. Life has officially become too much to handle, and when I look at the reality of things, it’s depressing. I thought that if I healed, life would be better...
  17. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Focusing is really hard. I was completely manipulated and lied about. This is so unreal, but real. The stress that this causes me is so bad my right arm is going numb. I know it’s all psycho somatic, but damn if it isn’t hard to stop. All the way from my shoulder to my hand. It is awful lol. I...
  18. AnnieMae

    Triggered By Criticism And Accusations And Seeing Conflict

    I imagine standing up to my abuser too, and having a better life, but it just isn’t happening to me. It was really confusing when I was blamed and things did not work out how I wanted them to. I wasted all my good years on someone who was just using me.
  19. AnnieMae

    What are you good at???

    I am good at shopping, being a good aunt, my job, and cooking, even though I don’t do that as much.
  20. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I totally agree about the spidey analogy- love it. It made me smile. That last paragraph you wrote- totally how I feel. And I think a lot of it is because my ex used to call me crazy all the time and the court basically agreed with him. Then he secretly apologized and carried on a secret...
  21. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Thanks. This is positive and hopeful, it’s just hard to rebuild when you are alone and always in fear of being alone. Being alone gives me the worst anxiety ever. Thinking of being screwed over again does the same. I can’t judge people correctly, so I have a hard time opening up. I get it, I...
  22. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Yeah, I wish I could control my mind to do something and stop wasting my life away. I literally have no one. I am so overwhelmed mentally, I am so tired, and I just can’t believe this. Nothing has turned out the way I wanted. I was brainwashed into thinking I was better than people. That I...
  23. AnnieMae

    Sufferer My Story- there is hope! CSA, cPTSD

    This is amazing!
  24. AnnieMae

    What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

    I can relate to that. This is what I went through and felt like to a T- except with my ex. This is so crazy to even read this.
  25. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    So, one thing my therapist told me is I need to learn to control my mind. I have really been thinking A LOT about that lately. Control your mind. Makes sense, and I know I have to do it because I don’t know what else to do. I wish I had known all of this stuff years ago. Now, my life is stuck. I...
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