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Oddly, I came in thinking about posting "So I might have just quit my job today" only to find your post right on top. I guess it wasn't that unexpected, as I've been having issues with a co-worker for awhile. But, this is not unusual for me. I think I've quit every job impulsively, until the two...

What a day. Started off ok. I pepped myself up writing here last night, and woke up pretty peppy. Did a LITTLE cleaning. And was sort of organizing myself a bit. Or, preparing to organize.? I dunno, probably did nothing. Then got a text from the crazy coworker apologizing. Which means the boss...

Thank you so much. it's really helped, I've had some a-ha moments when I just let it flow Ha, and since everything reminds me of a song, that just got me singing "Weather Report Suite" by the Dead :)

Ok. Ok ok. If anything, maybe I've noticed a pattern....? I remember and/or talk about a horrible thing....and then I go "out of it"/autopilot. and/or get sick. Lose time. I guess that time is getting shorter? It was a week this time....and then when the fog starts to lift, oh do I hate...

Then there are the times, like today, when the visits are actually somewhat pleasant, and I feel bad that I even posted about her. I only drink tea at mom's house, and she'll always make me a cuppa when I get in, and she has digestive biscuits. Lol, writing that though, I'm like, wow, that's...

Thank you guys for responding. I guess I'm just not ready to give up my whole family yet. I know I wouldn't be popular if I cut my mom off. I guess I'd still have my sister. Cause she knows mom's true side. @Fadeaway I do like that way of looking at it!!!! @Killashandra Sorry for your dreams...

My mother just said that to me after I said "Love you" at the end of the call. Mind you, I had already said it, she must not have heard me say it, so she said it, then waited for me to say it, so I said it louder, which must have made me sound less enthusiastic. You know what b****??? You're...

Someone texted me about something, and I replied, "aw man, not today, maybe Friday." They texted back "it IS Friday"

I am not feeling well, so I'm resting *before* it gets worse instead of ignoring it. I stayed home from work yesterday, and was going to go today, but my coworker that gives me a ride pretty much took one look/listen and said "go back in." So I've cranked the heat up and I'm on the couch in my...

Saw my T on Monday, finally, after a month. I wrote about that session in a different thread. I ended it dissociated (I think), and kinda cranky, and then remembered something awful from childhood, and then my next appointment was cancelled. Anywho, I made it through the memory, and the month...

well....that....was unexpected.... roomie still wants to be roomie, even if it's a different place. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know he considers us friends, even if I don't feel all that close, but I guess I do? anyway...wow...

Whaaaaaaaaat just possessed me to actually give someone I've had a crush on my number??? Wow, ok started that right after I did it, then got home, and shortly after got the notice of end of tenancy. cool. i'm shaking even though I was expecting it, and kinda had planned on moving anyway. it's...

"Shiny" from Moana

Woke up with physical symptoms today, yay. Major pelvic pain. I keep meaning to have it checked out physically, but made and didn't go to 3 gyno appts, so they discharged me from the practice. I did finally make an appointment with a new primary doctor, so I'll ask her recommendation. I am...

Left work on time!

It started out with a kiss how did it end up like this it was only a kiss it was only a kiss

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Still so scattered, but at least a somewhat more productive scattered. Well, no. Not really. Ok. Which part refuses to focus? LMAO if only parts therapy was explained in song form, then I could understand it better. Then of course my next thought. Sigh. I'll just have to do...

My understanding/theorizing is that focusing on something in the present (the movements, or sounds, or tapping, however your t does it) while thinking about the past trauma somehow helps the trauma move along. I remember reading a long time ago that if you're stuck in a routine, changing that...

Mediumship circle, not healing, but still healing. Got more confirmation that I am sensitive. A medium. My guides are gentle, and they're protecting me, with a bright silver, delicate...shawl, I want to say. Though I don't think that's how the medium who told me that put it. He said armored...

I'm not standing still, I am lying in wait. I could be doing more while waiting for time to go to the healing circle though.... did a silly quiz earlier "what one word describes you?" It came up Angel. The OA, original angel, her nde made me say, yeah, that's what it was like. In the beyond...

Asked someone the other day "I wonder if Hamilton could be considered a coping mechanism?" It's amazing. I can't stop listening, and even if I'm not listening, it's playing in my head anyway. A musical hasn't impacted me like this since RENT, which made me change my life. I heard it in high...

Good Morning! Or Afternoon, or Evening! Whatever time it is where you are, I'm wishing you peace, hope, strength and love :)

Lol @ladee , add bad daughter back on cause I was just rubbing my chest and she asked why are you rubbing your chest?? I said cause you give me chest pains! Maybe I'll guilt her into assisted living lol. It's a role reversal, I've seen her through an open heart surgery, and I used to ask her all...

Got to mom's to find she had fallen in the night. Her arm looks terrible. Had yocsend pic to aunt and sister. Since i don't drive my aunt has to come get her to take her to urgent care. I fail as a daughter. I'm not here enough, i should be nicer. And she needs to be in assisted living even if...

Omg I just peed my pants. Wtf bananie. I was almost to mom's. What 36 yo does that???