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    Trying To Get Up, Could Use Some Understanding

    Thank you for sharing. It helps to know someone understands. My dog passed away this morning. I think part of my deep upset was sensing something wrong. I knew she was ill, but the death was sudden. I work from home and she was my constant companion so it's really hard.
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    Graduation: My Dream Deferred - Realized!

    Hi there void! Thanks for asking, and the congratulations. I didn't see the reply til today. My degree is in digital journalism. I'm a writer and so excited to be able to do the news. I'm doing it p/t right now with another f/t+ job but looking forward to transitioning soon. Am so glad I finally...
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    Trying To Get Up, Could Use Some Understanding

    Am feeling out of sorts, would be glad to hear from anyone who can relate to any of this. Just feeling burnt out and exhausted and disconnected.
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    Trying To Get Up, Could Use Some Understanding

    I just have to remember, the way I feel makes perfect sense, and what I'm doing does too. Sometimes things seem convoluted, and that probably is because I'm stressed out and tired, and probably overworked, ha. I'm not more unreasonable, I'm just more beleaguered. I'm afraid to loose the very...
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    Trying To Get Up, Could Use Some Understanding

    I just wrote my editor a message, asking if we could extend the deadline a week or if he wanted me to try for something this week, and let him know I was sorry that extra work and family demands had gotten the best of me. Told him I was willing to give up the assignment or turn it in at 1/2 my...
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    Trying To Get Up, Could Use Some Understanding

    Yeah, that's my problem. I can get up and do things, but when I stop... sit down, think... I'm crying or leaden or upset again. I could deal with the challenge but not the upsetting thing my T said and I really don't feel like getting up anymore for work, and time is running down. I'm managing...
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    Trying To Get Up, Could Use Some Understanding

    I had a flare up I guess you'd say on Sunday/Monday and it's lingering. Dredged up some painful memories, took them to therapy, was really struggling to get up, all the crying didn't help, just felt so out of sorts. I feel really alone and hurt and upset and SO tired, like I could turn to stone...
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    Questioning Recovered Memories

    I've dealt with recovered memory issues for many years. After much experience and angst, I have come to understand a few things that help me keep perspective about them. First, memory is not fact, it is more akin to a sensation, such as touch or sight in that memory feeds us information, but it...
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    Graduation: My Dream Deferred - Realized!

    Thanks all. :) I'm really excited for my new career, something I never expected I'd really get an opportunity to do. Meaningful work. And happy to know that I made it all the way through, learned so much and earned my degree. Sometimes it's really hard for me to focus on/appreciate the positive...
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    Graduation: My Dream Deferred - Realized!

    On May 31 I finished my last class in my bachelor's degree program. On July 19 my degree was officially conferred. I dropped out of high school at 17, only a few months from graduation, due to PTSD, undiagnosed and untreated at the time. It was all I could do to stay sane. But I stabilized a...
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    Yesterday, My Therapist Dumped Me.

    Sending hugs, that sounds awful and though I am truly sorry it happened the way it did, clearly you'll be healthier without that T. I hope you find some comfort soon, keep posting if it helps, and find the "just right" for you therapist. Maybe it's the old adage that we have to kiss a few frogs...
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    Anxiety In Between Contact

    I feel for you spending $1250 a month, good help can be so expensive! I was spending a lot more than that at first, too much to keep up with it, but now I am down to about $650 per month, still pricey, but very reasonable given her credentials and the amount of therapy.
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    Anxiety In Between Contact

    Regarding the article, I guess I would say, my issue isn't with dependency, it's about being anxious about those I depend on. Because I've been badly burned in the past. So the dependency is fine, and the reaction to it is what I'm working on now, so that I can be relieved of the anxiety around...
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    Anxiety In Between Contact

    Therapy is a real relationship- in my case, the therapeutic relationship is one of the most powerful. But it is not emotionally reciprocal. All relationships require exchange, in therapy it's just primarily exchanging money I earned from my expertise for her expertise. But beyond the clinical...
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    Anxiety In Between Contact

    Oh yes, I'm extraordinarily goal oriented. I've achieved a number of goals due to my hard work in therapy, from improving my parenting to creating a better marriage to completing my degree to transitioning into a new career to doing some difficult trauma work and resolving some of those...
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    Anxiety In Between Contact

    Hello all, It's been quite a while since I've posted here but I could use some calm and understanding perspective. (Please try and be moderate in your replies, keeping in mind it's a long story and this is just some of it and I really hope you all can help me calm down, not ramp up more, ha.)...
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    Having Trouble With Usual Tasks - Brain Just Not Working

    Hi there, just wanted to say I could relate. I got back to school last year, also online, and it's such a struggle to keep up, my brain's always in a fog and I always seem to be procrastinating. I never know hardly how I get anything done, and sometimes, I just don't. :( No good advice except...
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    Broken

    I was sexually abused by my father: oral sex is the one I think of the most. I did support groups, therapy and workbooks as a young woman to deal with it. A couple years post-therapy I met my husband. (I previously considered myself a lesbian, I am still most attracted to women, but I was...
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    Extreme Fatigue / World Too Loud, Too Busy - Help

    It sounds like you're using some defense mechanisms, mostly unconscious, to keep yourself safe. When I've been suicidal, I've felt extreme lethargy too- I figure it's my body's way of slowing me down and preventing me from acting on bad impulses. The other effect sounds like derealization, a...
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    Would You Say Goodbye

    Well, if you have tried her methods based on DBT for one year and you have not made progress and you do not feel too attached to her, what would be the positive reasons for staying? Maybe listing both will help.
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    Would You Say Goodbye

    P.S. I do notice you said "you imagine her becoming more rigid." Did you actually ask her how her practice would change with you, if at all, or did she discuss it with you? And I'm not sure if she really was "fine" with it. Are you positive? Because it's her job and part of her ethical code not...
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    Would You Say Goodbye

    I'm sorry to hear about this. I don't feel like we have nearly enough information to judge what's best, as if a stranger really could. I want to support you in trusting your judgment and weighing the alternatives: starting again with someone new right away quitting therapy altogether seeing her...
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    What Did My Therapist Mean....

    But you see, that's exactly the point: if a person is here asking what their therapist thinks, they've already accepted the challenge of doing the hard work, one step at a time. They've found someone, seen someone, and spoken with someone enough to say something meaningful and receive a...
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    What Did My Therapist Mean....

    I think it's up to the therapist and client to decide what's reasonable for the amount of money provided. There is so much variety from provider to provider and even among individual clients seeing the same person. Ultimately, of course, if the client expects an accurate answer, we must ask the...
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    What Did My Therapist Mean....

    Yes, folks can be quick to judge. I don't find all the responses I've gotten to those threads equally helpful, but I do appreciate that people take the time to reply to me. And I find having others share their experiences helpful as well as getting some different possible interpretations, to...
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