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    Im Proud

    I am so proud and happy for you! I have found that walking the trail near my apartment, as many times as I need to, helps my anxiety.
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    Relationship Echoes Of Conversations

    I am trying my best to move on. I am having a bad day. I had to call my therapist because I had a breakdown and just lost my ish. The manic government posts continue with my PTSD ex. He spent all day on FB having a discussion with himself. It's scary, and I've been informed that nothing can be...
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    Relationship Ex Fallout And Anxiety.

    I have to move on. What other choice do I have? I'm not wasting my life waiting for a meltdown, a breakup, or a marriage that's not with me. He made his decision, I respect that, and I am on my way to my own.
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    Relationship Ex Fallout And Anxiety.

    OMG The need to plan! I have that so bad. I am going to work on it with my therapist; it was one of the first things he noticed about me. My exSgt has put my entire life in a jumble. I had planned to move to him next year and restart my entire career with him. I was that in love that I would...
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    What Does "i Love You" Mean To You?

    When I said it, I meant that I was unconditional. Whatever came forward, we would be able to face as a team. Because I believe in him, I trusted him, and I had faith we were both looking for the best in each other.
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    What Does Your Username Mean?

    Shadesofgreen is the Disney resort where he planned to propose to me.
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    Relationship Ex Fallout And Anxiety.

    I am moving on, trying to take care of myself. But he'll stay in my phone ... just in case that breakdown happens. I feel like a bad person rooting for it because I think that's the only way he'll get help. Otherwise, his life with be a PTSD purgatory.
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    Relationship Ex Fallout And Anxiety.

    He has had a complete personality change since he called me crying and suicidal. I have to accept the fact that the man that I loved doesn't exist anymore.
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    Relationship Ex Fallout And Anxiety.

    I think I just need support and friends right now. He is 100% with the new girl. I guess the "take a break" turned into full on breakup when I wasn't looking - he didn't even address this with me. It's like I never existed. I can't do anything about that but let go of our love and plans. That...
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    Thank you @VoiceOfReason and @Peach ... I need to get myself in check now so I can move on. I feel like no matter what I do these next few days, I can almost guarantee he will circle back, and I need to be strong enough to avoid that.
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    This keeps getting more horrifying for me. He took her on the business trip with him! He's plastering this everywhere - my mind has run amuck, but clearly he isn't interested in pursuing our relationship like that. No, I don't have proof, and my gut instinct is actually that he is such a mess he...
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    Relationship Texts And Presents

    I reacted to the conversation I had with him and had sent him a book that he loved from his childhood, a tie for his new job, and a really sweet card. And then I saw the pics ... so I think I feel like a double fool and I greatly appreciate all the support. I'm very glad you found him a...
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    @Peach That's exactly how I'm feeling. I can't stress enough that I'm willing to work with him. I'm hoping for the best but anticipating the worst. Not hearing back from him is the worst this time. I'm afraid he won't come around at all.
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    It's two pictures. And I think that I'm more upset because I felt duped by the previous conversation I had with him. Needless to say, I went to my first therapy session last night and got some good advice. I made it a point to reach out to my vet and let him know that I wanted to discuss - I...
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    I am flabbergasted that I am posting this, but those Facebook photos of him and this girl keep appearing. I finally - after about two weeks of waiting to see if he'd address it with me - texted him the photo and asked for an explanation. I didn't accuse him of cheating. I didn't come off snarky...
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    Relationship Texts And Presents

    I have two questions: 1. I know I worry a lot. Usually about stupid things and cause my own anxiety. But do PTSD guys (my combat vet) appreciate letters and presents? Since he's 5 states away, I like to send him "care packages" and hand written letters. I feel like if he has something more...
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    General Do I Need Therapy?

    I reached out for a counselor for myself yesterday and will contact for an appointment tomorrow. This is the first major hiccup we've had, and in the three days after it, I'm still having difficulty reconciling it with myself. He is in another state and is having difficulty communicating (he...
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    General How Do You Handle The Debbie Downers?

    @Mallaky I'm sorry you've been treated that way. It has to be hurtful. I am trying not to turn my BF into a taboo topic. I am so proud of the work he does, the growing he wants to do ... I know that I am open and vulnerable and could be hurt. But it's a risk I'm willing to take. And I won't...
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    General How Do You Handle The Debbie Downers?

    It's assumptions. I do not believe that I am wrong for believing my boyfriend. I do not believe he deserves to an interrogation of a stupid Facebook photo or his life in another state (we're LDR at the moment). The constant jabbering is what is flaring up my anxiety - not him!
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    General How Do You Handle The Debbie Downers?

    How do you handle the people who are constantly telling you the "obvious"? "He's not good for you" or "He's unstable" or "This will never work out" or "Are you sure he isn't cheating on you" or whatever other obnoxious question and badgering session that it brings? I recognize that my family...
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    Relationship Why Won't He Say We Are "together"?

    I needed to hear this today. My BF blocked me on Facebook for some reason. While the peanut gallery will yell and throw stones accusing him of cheating, I think that it was more of a disconnect. They are also furious that he changed his profile pic to him and a female friend. He is adamant he is...
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    This was actually a really eye opening experience for both of us. It's strange to say that this situation brought us closer even though we've never physically been further. I also called him for a logistical thing and he was adamant he would speak to me later about everything else. I just...
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    @Kailani Thank you. It does. I had that long phone call, and then a whole day of nothing, even though there were reasons to communicate. I am trying not to take it personally, but I know I'm not a priority right now. It's still hard.
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    He called last night, very late. He cried for like, 70 minutes before being able to apologize for not being able to handle seeing me when I visited - not because I scared him, but because it suddenly dawned on him that he loved me and he didn't want to be in this state when he saw me. He is in...
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    Relationship He Said We Needed Space, I Don't Even Know If We're Speaking

    @Peach Thank you. I know I'm in a major upheaval this week. I feel better knowing that it's the weekend and he has a busy weekend (he takes refuge in sports and will be playing), but ... I also know I won't hear from him. I know I need to take care of myself. I just hope he doesn't forget me.
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