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I relate every day. But I live in an isolated world. I don't know if that's the way you normally live. I am not married and don't have kids. I stay away from everyone and don't work or get together with anyone unless its well planned in advance. The only people I normally see are my therapists...

I never understood why I hated myself so much even as a young child but I would just start crying when I saw a another kid who looked sad. I would be in the grocery store or wherever, and see some kid who just looked upset for some reason I didn't know, and tears would well up in my eyes. During...

I understand. I would be horrified! Not saying you deserve to be horrified, but knowing the people I worked with, I would have been horrified. Is there any way you think they just took it off the printer and disregarded it? I used to see stuff all the time that wasn't mine that I just gave to...

I never meant going to court. I meant confronting them in person.f*ck going to court. I worked in law enforcement. I know the victim doesn't win. Its up to the victim to get their own feeling of justice by confronting the abuser when they feel the strength to do it. Hopefully they don't do...

I have a sick 15 year old dog that is my life long companion and I can relate in that way. I hope your dog is ok. I know how much they matter in our lives. Mine is my baby! I love the look she gives my when I come in the door. SHe loves me I know. I hope everything turns out well!!

God was the only reason I got through my sexual abuse. Jesus CHrist was the ONLY reason I survived. I had planned on killing myself at age 12, but I was afraid I'd go to Hell. I love God. I had grown up in a very strict Christian religious household, but I KNEW in my heart what was right about...

I still feel guilty for not confronting my grandmother who watched my grandfather rape me for years. As she was dying my family told me it wasn't right to talk to her about it since she was already going to confront her maker. I was on the way to the hospital and I turned back. I regret that...

There is a point in asking for justice....for yourself. Stil ask for yourself. You are important no matter what anyone else says! I Followed this thread to this point and was disgusted that people just let everyone off the hook. What is wrong with this world? I am a Veteran and still believe...

I am disgusted by the topic but intrigued. I can't even think of a couple together without wanting to vomit. The funny thing is I always wanted to be close to someone. I am just so grossed out by the physical aspect and closeness to others that I can't relate. I hate the body, and every part...

Definitely a difference between the two. I know my therapist means "threatening suicide". I could talk to her about my suicidal thoughts if it came up. She just wants to hear what I'm really thinking about. She doesn't want me attempting to kill myself or threatening it on a weekly basis...

I would avoid a hospital at all costs (at least in US) unless you are actively suicidal. I have been in many hospitals and they are horrible places that re-traumatize people who already have PTSD. I wasn't getting better in one hospital (go-figure), so they sectioned me to the state hospital...

I think the point I had originally meant to get across is not based on a child being weak or strong during the abuse. It was how they dealt with life after the abuse. I think some seem to "persist" where many others do not. It's no fault of that child, it's just a strange thing that children go...

I guess I dont agree. I was extremely strong through this period until I was about 12, and I had been abused since I was an infant.

I know you are terrified. I feel like I should have all the answers for you. My previous job was in law enforcement. Its just that things are so different every day, I wish I could tell you everything is great. I really want to help in any way I can. It's just that lie isn't like that now. I...

I guess I don't understand the meaning of shame. I always feel shameful. Thats why I bludgeon myself with a hammer or wrench and stab myself to the point that I need antibiotics to heal. I have had multiple abusers as a young child, then again as an adult. Obviously the worst is as a young...

Thanks Solara! I felt like she was worth it. I am definitely someone who expects people to run away from me. She is different. Not only is she a Psychiatrist at the hospital, but she is doing therapy which is very odd. I think I'm usually the one that initiates the running away. I'm just trying...

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. My problem isn't purging. I understand your difficulty with an eating disorder though. I deal with the failure of not taking in enough food. They are definitely different but are still eating disorders. Its a hard addiction to change. My therapist...

Hi all....I just got out of the hospital because of my most recent self injury. I am trying to move forward, but it seems like I always take 2 steps back. I'm the type that doesn't trust anyone to stay very long. They leave as quick as they come. That's been the MO. The problem is, my new...

I had just recently heard about this. I'm not a zealot by any means. I just heard about it by a Psych nurse who thought it was interesting. He was telling me how important it was for the search for meaning in your life. The search for purpose...that's what I was looking for. I found it...

I think there's a HUGE difference between religion and faith. You can have faith in Jesus Christ as your savior without being in some cult or First Baptist Church or whatever Church you want to name. It's a personal connection not a group connection. That goes for all religions that call...

Are you witnessing it now between your parents, or have they stopped?

I hope you feel better too. I don't have any great words of wisdom except to say that you've got this far...and you seem to be doing quite well at bringing it on. I understand the scenarios that go with all these settings, and I just want to say I wish you the best! Everyone deserves the top of...

I hear you loud and clear and want so desperately to feel it in my soul. I understand the rational concept exactly as you have put it. I know I don't need to hurt myself anymore. The issue I keep running into is my OCD, and my obsessive thoughts to continue hurting myself because this is what I...

You are exactly right. I did contact my therapist after I had gone a little overboard with my self injury and needed to get my arm checked. The problem was she wanted me to go to the ER. Now I'm caught in a quandry because I am afraid they will look at it in a more severe way. My therapist is...

I was a law enforcement officer so that's I guess how I view the post. I just wonder it got this far if he had done such illegal acts with his prior partner?