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I had a flashback a few days ago. But it wasn't to any of my traumas, it was to a time that I almost attempted suicide. I have been really close to committing suicide twice. Once with my duty weapon and once with a knife. Does this make sense to anyone. I thought my flashbacks would be...

My assignment from my T for this week is to think about what it means to be a survivor. i cant figure that out!! I dont feel like a survivor. I was not a victim as my traimas are natural disaster and witness to a horrific shark attack. Some days i feel like a fighter, most days i don't.

The anniversary of one of my traumas (a Cat 3 hurricane) is today and tomorrow. It was about 10 days of trauma actually, that started on Sept 15. Normally I'm anxious about it. Like physically ill. But this time I feel numb. Like I have no feelings at all. And then I get really angry and...

I admitted to my T in my last session that i think about suicide daily. I am safe right now and gave no plan, but i think about as giving the burden of it away. Now she knows. We can talk about it and i don't have the big burden of the secret any more. Your T shouldn't tell anyone unless you...

I never thoight of it that way. Just the way everyone else feels all the time!! Yeah. If i can make it happen again, i intend too. You are probably right though. We live in such a heightened state that any relief feels like too much.

I"m finally feeling like reading a little again. can anyone recommend any good books on PTSD and healing. I haven't read in 10 years so newer stuff would be nice. Thanks in advance!!!

No need to apologize. It is nice to not be alone!!! It is also nice to know it has a name and is a real thing isn't it!! My T was so calm and just like, it is called depersonalization/derealization. You aren't going crazy it is a common symptom of PTSD. You can read about it and ask me any...

Thank you. Do they make you crazy calm? It was almost too quite in my head. Is that what is supposed to happen? I'm learning so much from my new T. I've been seeing her for about 5 months. I had a previous T for 7 or 8 years and she never taught me about grounding. She wasn't very...

@Junebug honestly I'm scared it is a fluke. Like I want to intentionally trigger myself and try again. If that makes any sense? LOL I won't, but I really want to!!

So I discussed this incident with my T and she called it depersonalization/derealizaion. I looked that up and it is exactly what happened. I feel better having names for this stuff and knowing that others have experienced it!! I feel less "crazy."

I experienced my first episode of depersonalization/derealization Friday (I've had flashbacks, but never this) and on Monday my T taught me a grounding technique to use when it happens again. She called it grounding with the 5 senses. I was curious if others use grounding during times that...

My therapist did an exercise with me where I wrote a letter to my inner child. Then she had me imagine my child self sitting next to me and I read the letter to her. Then I actually had a conversation with her and hugged her. The whole process was guided by my T though. I couldn't imagine...

Well, if anyone is interested I got my hug, LOL. We had a really intense session on Tuesday. I was really upset and asked. And I didn't even have a complete anxiety attach over it.

My sister remembers being sexually abused. And my neices at ages 4 and 2 accused my step father of molesting them. But i have no memory of being sexually abused. Then a few years after i was diagnised with PTSD i had a flashback to being molested. In the flashback i was 4 or 5. I could not...

Wow. I googled it really quick and that sounds like what happened. How is it i have had ptsd since 2005 and never heard of this. I guess i know what i will be talking about to my therapist monday. I have been totally triggered since the hurricane hit fl recently because one of my traumas was...

It was scary. My 5 year old was in the car. So i have never heard of an emotional flashback. Does that mean i was have a flashback to feelings but not a specific memory? That has never happened. Usually my flashbackes are like watching a movie of a scene playing out as if i were watching my...

I was driving yesterday and all i could focus on was oncoming traffic. My eyes were twitching back and forth as the traffic passed. I felt like i was floating and not really there. It physically felt like a flashback but there was no memory playing out. What just happened? It scared me.

So i am really glad i put this out there because i was really thinking i was wrong for wanting something so simple as a hug. I see now that it is not just me. Obviously not everyone wants to be touched. But i need it. My old therapist would do things like put a hand on my shoulder when i was...

In my head the worst that can happen is that she will say no and want to stop seeing me because I've overstepped a boundry. I'm terrified. Yeah, I have issues with abandonment too on top of PTSD.

Maybe I'll muster up the courage to ask for a hug next session. But i don't know. My inner child is afraid she will say no.

Yes. The therapist I saw for 7 years became like family to me. She shared about her life as well and we were both okay with it. I don't have that kind of relationship with my current therapist that I've been seeing for about 4 months. I do fell like I need some way to end my sessions though...

I could not live in tornado alley!! at least with hurricanes we can leave. I could not leave as a cop, but I can now!! The Hurricane that just came through Florida has me seriously triggered! I hurricane can hit anywhere in the county and it triggers me!!

Hi everyone. I'm new here and have a question about Therapy. I'm curious if anyone has ever felt too attached to their therapist and if my relationship with mine is healthy. I always thought I was supposed to remain detached from my therapist as a person. But I just can't. I mean, she knows...

Hello everyone. My name is Jennifer. I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2005 as a result of many many many traumas. Some Trauma from childhood and many from being a police officer. I'm severely triggered by hurricanes and since it happens to be hurricane season, I'm looking for people to talk to...