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I'll touch base with my Therapist about it next week. Friends are non existent. Didn't have many to begin with but I left them behind when I got sick. I no longer play well with others. I get along with kids and my dogs. I do have a cat but no one ever owns a cat they just tolerate you. I...

I do have another dog and she is some comfort but it's hard to watch her look for him and mope around. She will hardly leave my side. I tried looking at some of the rescue animals online but it just upset me. I may have to get another dog for her more than me. She just seems lost. She tried to...

His spirit was good but he just could not stand anymore. I've been nursing him along for about a year knowing this was coming. I feel like I violated his trust in me to take care of him. He had that trust in eyes when he passed. All of the old flashes just made me sick to my stomach.

I had to put my dog down a couple of days ago. Needless to say I got along with him better than any humans. Having to put him down felt like a betrayal and along with that I get all kinds of flashbacks of all of the kids I watched die. Taking and putting him down on the steel table after he...

I think photoshopping him out of the picture is just avoiding the issue. Buried ghosts come back to haunt you when you least expect it. Besides the whole idea originally was to give the kids a photo of me and a rare photo of my dad. They didn't know him very well. For that matter I didn't know...

I have a photo of myself, myself, and my kids at my graduation. My ex found it and sent it to me. It was probably one of the proudest moments of my life. Recently the photo haunts me. The picture of my dad disturbs me. I have been trying to figure out why. I was angry on the inside with him...

Sorry Michigan State in the US. I'm in Memphis, TN so he traveled quite a ways to get arrested. Take my word for it that the whole situation that triggered this event was stupid. I don't want to get into the protesters and the anti-protesters. It's too sensitive a subject.

Well the event went off without a hitch. They learned a lot from the last time in 98. They also modeled their response after another city who have successfully handled such demonstrations. The news said one guy got arrested. He was from way up north in Michigan.

Well unfortunately unless you have a real good hiding place you will need something to keep everybody from taking your stuff. There was a Twilight Zone called "The Shelter" that hits home on the subject.

I'll be fine. The trouble would have to start downtown and I live 10 miles from there. It would take a little while to reach out here. I hope. I've told my kids to stay away from downtown. I've showed my Mom where the shotgun and ammo is at in case I'm away. I've got my go bag and go box ready...

I worked a riot in 98 and I guess it bothered me more than I realized. I'm hoping they get rained out. The Mob mentality is a very scary thing. Reminds me of how fragile the world can become in a matter of seconds. My Dad was in the riots of 68 and I was six. I remember seeing it on the news...

No offer yet. Talking to a Mortgage agent. I have all of mine and my Mom's papers ready but the Agent won't be back till the 8th. I can talk to the Farm Credit people next week I guess. The Realtor told us about the Farm Credit people. The way they are slowly squeezing loans out it may be...

Two weeks ago I was doing real good. Looking maybe to buy a place out in the country. Now I'm feeling overwhelmed. The place in the country seems too good to be true. I'm scared something will happen before we can get it. Now I don't want to get out of bed. Can't seem to get into gear to make...

Compromise is part of the problem. She would get something on the town square with an 1/8 of an acre. I would go nuts. She said getting some land would be OK with her of that was a few weeks ago. Buying a place as an investment for something later would go over like a lead balloon. Where we...

I am in the middle of an anxiety attack. I went and talked to a Pre-Purchase counselor this morning in reference to buying a house. I got a little advise on credit but my income which is only disability leaves me stuck if I try to buy myself. My Mom is 81 and has said she wants to move back to...

The conversation normally stops at I have PTSD. People aren't sure what to say after that. It's never part of a normal conversation. I told my primary care doctor after closing the exam room door but only after he asked.

I see my Therapist about once a month now if for nothing else but stress reduction. It's much less than it has been in the last few years. I guess that is a good sign. I think the deranged cop (Christopher Dorner) out in California that made me think about it. It seems he let his anger...

Can't sleep and I was thinking about the time when my glass ran over. I had seen things and people close to me had died but I think a big part of the overflowing was brought on by being mistreated. I think on top of all of the other crap I was dealing with many things happened right before the...

Here in the states there has been a huge resurgence of gun control antics and contentions since the school shooting. Seems that everyday there are discussions in the media about PTSD and the ability to carry. It felt for awhile there was a more a positive vibe about PTSD. Especially since so...

You might be right. When women are younger they seek men who can provide a stable family life and you must to be able to support them. Maybe somebody who doesn't need a man might want a life partner. It's the old hunter vs gatherer thing. She would probably have to real mean to put up with me...

It's the reptile brain. Fight or flight are so hardwired into your brain. It's like that instinctive fear of heights. It's not something you can ignore. If you walk through a certain door and I hit you in the head with a baseball bat you may forgive me but you will never walk through that door...

I left my wife 16 years ago and haven't had sex since. Man counting the years seems weird. I loved my wife when I left her it was we just couldn't make it work together. I was always busy working or raising my kids so I only had just a few dates. The last few years I have been busy working on...

I've had some anxiety lately while doing my hobby of curbing. Security guy jumped out and yelled at me. Normally I just ignore folks but I was afraid he was going to put his hands on me. I'm not afraid of him I'm afraid of me. Training takes over and bad things happen. This was months ago and...

Change is difficult but I would rather be around my dogs than most people. They always love you even if you screw something up. Nobody is going to sneak up on me when I have my dogs around. I can relax a little. I can complain to my dog about all of the things in this screwed up world we find...

Deep breaths...For me I'm the one who has had to in past deal with all of out of control people or domestics. Feels like a lack of control.....I am suppose to be doing something about it. It reminds me of the adrenaline pumping before having to go hands on with someone except there isn't...